Accidentally Using The Wrong Reality Check

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Last night I went to bed very late and I slept and dreamt pretty deeply, I possibly had some false awakening dreams and/or I woke up briefly and went back to sleep several times, and my sleep and dream cycles were so deep that during the times that I did briefly wake up (in the real world and/or dream world) I was mostly out of it (like a deep haze or fog clouding your mind like your consciousness being mostly blocked from deep sleep, and so you are functioning more on a subconscious dream-like level) not knowing what day it was or what time period it was or if I was asleep or awake and I had false assumptions that I was somehow still in high school again so I did not voice record my dreams; and so I can now only remember barely part of several dream fragments.

Dream 1

All that I can remember of this dream from last night is that the actress Chloë Grace Moretz was either in the dream and/or was mentioned in the dream, I also think that the dream took place during the day, but that is all that I can remember of this dream.

Dream 2

All that I can remember of this dream is that I was giving Karin Sakwanda feedback on her large no-frills orgonite pendant and the necklace from her Orgonise Yourself Etsy shop.

I probably let her know that the pendant looks good and gave my first impressions of it but the necklace broke on the second day, the cord itself is good but the design and metal that holds the cord is weak and flawed, and so I probably recommended that she change the design and materials that hold the cord or just tie the cord without the metal or use a ball chain style necklace or something like that.

But that is all that I can remember of this dream.

Dream 3

All that I can remember of this dream is either waking up into the dream or just being in the dream early in the morning inside my parent’s house, and it was a dark and wet and somewhat cool morning.

I was still in that deep sleep and dream cycle so I was under the false assumption that I was still in high school, and that I needed to get ready and drive to the D High School for school.

My brother GC was up and he was walking around and working outside in the yard as I was getting ready for school, I had a vague notion/idea that I probably had a job, but I could not think of what my job was and all that I knew is that I needed to get ready for school.

After getting ready I went outside to leave in my automobile for school, I probably waved goodbye to my brother GC, and then I got in my automobile but my windows were so fogged up that I could barely see out of them so I tried to use my windshield wipers and the defroster to clear away the fog.

I was under the false assumption that I did not have time to waste so I started driving even though I could barely see through the windshield, which was dangerous, and it was so bad that I could not see if anything was in the road when I went to make a left turn off of my parent’s street.

So I parked on the side of the street to manually wipe my windshield by hand while also turning up the defroster, which somewhat helped but not enough, and then I started to realize that something was not right.

My mind was so foggy and hazy that I could not think well, I knew that I was forgetting something and that something was not right, but I could not think of what it was.

I started to question if I really had school or not, I started to think that I thought that I graduated from high school many years ago, and so why would I be driving to school if I already graduated years ago.

This did not make sense to me, I started to come close to realizing that I was possibly dreaming, and so I decided to drive back home because of my foggy windshield and to try to think through the fog/haze blocking my thinking so that I could try to figure out what was going on.

I realized that I did not know what day it was, what year it was, what time it was, et cetera.

When I got back home I parked my automobile and I tried to remember what I was forgetting, I believe that one of the things that I was trying to remember was my training, which is my new code word to remind me of my training and practice and intentions for lucid dreaming so that I can question whether I am dreaming or not and then do reality checks and then when the dream goes lucid I can remember some techniques to try to keep the dream stable and then remember the things that I want to try once the lucid dream is stable.

Basically I am trying to train myself to use that code word as a trigger to remind me of my modified version of the Mr. Charles tactic from the film Inception, which is what my new approach is based on:

My hope is that will be a trigger to remember those things and/or to trigger a dream character to play the role of a Mr. Charles-like dream character to remind me of those things so that I will realize that I am dreaming, and then use my training.

Anyway, my mind was so foggy/hazy that instead of trying my normal reality checks, I tried to see if I could wake myself up to see if this was a dream or not.

I probably blinked my eyes or something while thinking/feeling that I want to wake up and I woke myself up from the dream, which was a mistake, normally I am supposed to do other reality checks inside the dream without trying to wake myself up but my mind was so fogged up/hazed up that I accidentally used a reality check that is to only be used as a last resort.

After waking up it took me a moment to recover from the deep sleep and dreams, and make sense of what day it was et cetera.

The end,

-John Jr

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