I am not sure if this is part of another dream or this dream but it involved the man with dark-color skin with short black hair who lives at The Staring Lady’s House on the street behind ours who often walks around in a very erratic and quick way while looking around a lot like he is mentally unstable and / or on drugs and / or something like that.
This week he has been walking back and forth on our street sometimes acting strange in real life, and in the dream he was doing the same thing so I was keeping an eye on him but that is all that I can remember of this part of the dream or this dream.
The rest of the dream or the next dream involved what was possibly two separate houses, the first one was possibly a fictional version of The E House or a house partly inspired by it, and the entrance of the house had a sunroom I guess you could say.
Some of it was made of brick like the bricks at The E House and I recognized this in the dream, and later I realized that along parts of the bottom of the sunroom were vents so air could come in and out of the sunroom and so could more sound if you were too loud.
This sunroom was a nice area with a nice view, we probably partied here first, and I remember being able to feel the outdoor air coming from the vents and it was cool air that felt good.
My brother GC and some other people including maybe Olga Kay possibly went to this house with me during the evening or night, and I guess we had a party or something.
This house possibly had a second floor with an entrance to the second floor that reminded me of the entrance to the second floor at The E House and it even had a door as well, and there was another fictional door on the wall of the first floor that was two short doors at the top of the wall that could open to the outside and even in the dream I found this a bit strange and I was not sure what that was for.
I recognized these doors as possible parts of The E House and some fictional and possibly partly real memories of The E House came back to me, I can not remember most of what happened at the house other than people having fun and maybe someone knew one or more languages so I remember trying to talk with them in one or more languages (probably French and maybe Esperanto and maybe even several other languages) and hoping to learn and practice with them, and maybe some of us spent the night at the house and / or at the second house.
The next thing that I remember is my brother GC and I being at the second house the next morning which was either next door or several houses down, and Olga lived there with several roommates (most or all of them being women, but only one of the roommates were there at the time).
The main room was a living room / dining room / kitchen / bedroom with at least: two round wooden tables where Olga and one of her female roommates with light-color skin with long curly yellow hair were eating breakfast, at least 7 kitchen stoves, at least two beds, other kitchen appliances, and living room appliances and furniture.
I was confused about why there were so many kitchen stoves with most or all of them not even being hooked up, this made no sense because the house already had a separate kitchen and dining room and bedrooms, and so I wondered why the main room also had a combination of these rooms in one.
I pointed this out to Olga annoyingly and her and her roommate just looked at me like I was being annoying, which I was, and I realized that I was being rude because this was not my house so I shut up and I went to confirm if I was correct by looking at parts of the house again and I was correct about there being separate rooms already. 😀
I went outside where there was a small field to the left and a basketball court in front of it, and I remember seeing my brother CC in the neighborhood trying to buy something maybe but I can not remember if I talked to him or not.
Later my brothers TDC and KDC were walking by and I briefly talked with them, and after that I remember practicing some kind of technique to help me with my anxiety that possibly involved closing my eyes, controlling my breathing, relaxing, focusing, et cetera.
Then Jessica Jones and Alisa Jones from the television show Jessica Jones (Season 2) walked over, Alisa was still struggling with her rage and anger issues that she can not control and so Jessica was still trying to figure out how to help her while trying to make sure that Alisa does not kill or hurt someone, and so I decided to see if my new technique for anxiety could work for her rage / anger issues.
I taught the technique to Alisa and she was able to sense strong emotions of people in a large radius, she sensed a certain strong emotion of a man, and I told her to focus and locate the man and she did.
She decided to go after him, I guess his strong emotion triggered her, and somehow using my technique also allowed her to either teleport to the man or to travel to him faster.
Jessica wanted to go after her to stop her so I quickly taught her the technique, she was able to sense where her mother Alisa was based on her strong emotions, and then Jessica was able to also teleport or travel fast to reach her.
After that several people showed up including the character Mildred Hayes (played by the actress Frances McDormand) from the movie Three Billboards Outside Ebbing, Missouri (which I have not seen), and Mildred was either my sister or some kind of other type of family member of mine.
Mildred was very mean and foul-mouthed, I am not sure what happened but somehow I was on the ground (maybe because of her, but I have no idea), and Mildred was yelling and cursing and belittling me (like an older sister being mean to her younger brother / trying to toughen him up).
I remember telling her that she was right (maybe she called me weak, a coward, a pushover, too nice, less of a man, et cetera) and I told her about how I have struggled with anxiety for years, she stopped insulting me like she did not know this already, and I told her that she was mentally and socially and maybe emotionally stronger than me and that I wanted her to help me to become stronger as well in those areas and to help me overcome my anxiety.
Mildred smiled and told me that she would help me but that it would not be easy, that she would be hard on me, et cetera like she was drill instructor or something and she said some things that reminded me of some things said by Gunnery Sergeant Hartman during this scene from the movie Full Metal Jacket:
Mildred told me that I could not afford to be handicapped by anxiety because of me being lower class, male, because of the ethnic groups that I am part of, because of my family and that she refused to have a brother this weak , et cetera so I was going to have to man-up or that people would use this weakness against me and that some people can sense this weakness and will use you and dominate you et cetera.
She probably told me to get up because I was embarrassing myself and her so I did, I was smiling a bit, and I could see that she was happy and proud of me and looking forward to drilling me like a drill instructor to toughen me up even though she was trying to act tough to hide her happiness.
I looked forward to having someone willing to help me with this who I knew was strong in these areas, especially someone who was probably my sister, and I did not want to let her or myself down.
But I woke up.
The end,
-John Jr
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