My Grandfather CE Watching A New England Patriots’s Game

I only recorded part of the end of one of the dreams that I remembered, and so the other remembered dreams are forgotten now.

In the dream I had some false memories that seemed to show me and maybe some of my family spending the night outside and inside The E House, and I seemed to be spending those nights mostly outside in the back of a truck bed or a mostly open small truck camper or a mostly open small camper trailer / travel trailer that was in front of the boat port / boat garage.

I had a bed set up out there but I can not remember if I had anything to keep the bugs out or if it was completely open to the outside, and I had a plastic portable urinal.

I can not remember any of the details of those false memories or what was going on or why, I just know that my mom and my brother GC and I returned there during the night like I or we were going to spend the night again, and the lights were on next door at The W House like they were probably inside and still awake.

While outside I started questioning and wondering how had I slept outside like that and why, I started wondering about the portable urinal because I could go inside the house to use the bathroom so why did I have that, I wondered about bugs bothering me while sleeping outside, I wondered about the security risks of sleeping outside like that, and more.

My mom went inside The E House and she went into the kitchen doing something, and I went inside as well while my brother GC was still outside.

The house was still abandoned and looked rough but not as bad as in real life, I remember seeing a dead cockroach (roach) or two, and my grandfather CE was sitting in the living room in a chair to the left of the stairs closer to the hallway entrance watching a New England Patriots NFL football game on television that seemed to be a game at the start of a new season but I could not see who they were playing but I heard the announcers talking and I saw zoomed in video of the players on the field and on the sidelines.

I greeted my grandfather CE and he probably smiled and he nodded, and he looked content and relaxed as he sat there watching the American football game.

I sat there a little while watching the football game too and I said a few things to my grandfather CE who did not talk much at all, the dream had an interesting relaxed / comfortable feeling to it like when my grandmother DE is usually in my dreams and like her my grandfather CE was not talking much, and he seemed to be at peace and just enjoying the moment of being back in the house and being near family.

I did not realize that my grandfather CE was supposed to be dead at this point.

At some point I went into the kitchen to talk to my mom, out the window I saw my brother GC unloading some frozen raw meat and other supplies, and two women and a young woman with light-color skin with long yellow hair who looked like sisters were with him helping him.

At some point the oldest of them walked into the kitchen with some of the stuff asking where to put it, so my mom told her where to put it, and this woman wore more makeup than the others and she somewhat reminded me of Georgina Leahy; and she seemed like the type of person who is very relaxed and open when it comes to sex / sexuality / et cetera.

The woman possibly had a slight British / English accent of some kind but I can not remember, I just know that suddenly she asked my mom if I was single but my mom did not respond, and so she asked me.

I was surprised by this question but I responded that I was single, and then she surprised me even more by asking me if I was interested in her and if I wanted to date her or something like that.

I stalled a little trying to figure out how to answer this question, and then I gave a diplomatic answer that gave me some breathing room; and then maybe my mom started talking to her about getting the rest of the stuff outside that my brother GC had so I took this chance to leave back to the living room with my grandfather CE.

I started to think about this and the assumed plans to spend the night here and other things, I started to be embarrassed about the visitors seeing The E House in this condition, and I wanted to take them to my parent’s house instead to visit after they finish helping my brother GC.

While I thought about all of these things I watched the football game with my grandfather CE was who still smiling and seemed content, I then felt like I had not seen my grandfather CE in a long time, and I wondered why was he not in my false memories of spending the night here and outside the last few nights.

I started to feel a bit bad that I possibly had not visited my grandfather CE in a while, this did not make sense, I doubted that I would not visit him like that so I started to question things.

I noticed how peaceful he looked and how peaceful things felt and how good it was to see him again like I had not seen him in a while, I wondered why did I feel this way, and then I started to realize that something was not right.

I said a few things to my grandfather CE about the football game and maybe something else, but he only barely said a few things and made a few sounds (some that he used to make in real life).

I am not sure if this happened right before waking up or as I was waking up, but it suddenly hit me and I remembered that my grandfather CE was supposed to be dead and that is why things did not make sense and why I felt like I had not seen him in a while.

This realization swept over me like something in the movie Inception, it all made sense now and this brought a completely new meaning to this, and I wished that I would have realized this sooner so that I could have spent more time with my grandfather CE.

It was so good seeing him again and seeing him happy and just sitting there watching a football game with him, there was much that I wanted to ask him, but I woke up almost immediately when or as the realization hit me.

This dream felt more like a visitation-like dream where a dead person you knew shows up in your dream, and I woke up with a positive feeling that stayed with me throughout the day.

The end,

-John Jr


Kajagoogoo – Too Shy

Too Shy
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What is it?

Today’s song is the song Too Shy by the British band Kajagoogoo from their 1983 album White Feathers.