I Have A Baby Daughter?

Dream 1

Unfortunately I did not record this dream the first time that I woke up, and so I can not remember most of it now and what I remember is unclear and may contain errors.

The end of this dream took place during the day, I remember going inside a small train cart / storage container / shipping container / tiny house / small mobile home / whatever like building or whatever, and it was in a quiet mostly secluded area that may have been near a quiet road.

I remember a woman and a man with maybe light-color skin showing up and / or being there, I am not sure if I lived there or if this was just being used as a meet up location or what, I just know that the woman had a baby girl with her who was probably very young like she was possibly very recently born; and the baby was probably sleep or too young to open her eyes yet.

I can not remember the details unfortunately, but I think that the woman said that the baby girl was my daughter which confused and shocked me even in the dream; I asked how in the world was this possible (because I probably had never even had sex before with anyone (and even if I did I would use protection) and I probably never willingly donated sperm to a sperm bank), and the woman explained but I can not remember the details now unfortunately.

I think that things did not happen normally, the woman and I probably never had sex unless I was raped or something when I was unconscious or something, and so somehow the woman had gotten my sperm et cetera probably and my sperm was probably taken without my knowledge or consent but I am not sure how.

Maybe someone stole my sperm and used it at a sperm bank, maybe someone stole some of my DNA or whatever and experimented with it, et cetera but I can not remember what the woman told me about how she got pregnant with my baby; I may have even partly joked about if this was some kind of virgin birth or miracle baby or magical baby.

Whatever the situation was I probably did not have a legal obligation and I was not a willing or knowing participant in whatever led to her pregnancy, and it was probably no fault of my own.

I am not sure if the woman gave me any proof that I was the father, I assume that she possibly had some kind of evidence that was possibly test results of the baby girl and of DNA taken from me without my knowledge or consent, and maybe she even showed me that we were a match on something like Family Tree DNA where I got my genealogical DNA test done in real life.

I did not know this woman and I had probably never met her before and here she was showing me this probably newly born baby girl saying that I was the father under these strange circumstances outside of my control, and to make things even more surprising and shocking is that she was here to give up the baby girl because she did not want her; and she wanted me to have the baby.

Even as crazy as this situation was and even with how I feel about something like this and even with my current situation in life, I decided to accept the baby girl and become her father legally I assume, we possibly did some paperwork but I can not remember.

I just remember the woman and man leaving with me standing there holding my baby daughter inside this small building wondering what in the world I was going to do now, and what kind of mess have I gotten myself into; regardless I was going to try to be the best father that I could, but before I could even finish thinking about the situation the woman and the man returned.

The woman had changed her mind and she wanted the baby girl back, now the situation was even crazier, but after making sure that she was sure about this I gave her the baby girl back but maybe no paperwork was done to make this official (if any had been done previously).

I actually did not want to give up my daughter at this point but the woman was the mother and she seemed to really want her daughter now, and so I gave her up hoping to at least be able to stay in contact with my daughter and have a part in her life even though I had no legal or even moral obligations in this strange situation.

The dream jumped to the future, unfortunately I never did get to see or communicate with my daughter again like I had hoped, and all I got were unclear bits and pieces of information and maybe sometimes unclear broken up images about and of my daughter that were sent by email in holds lists-like lists like I get every work day for work.

This made me a bit sad, I had hoped to be a part of my daughter’s life, and I wanted to be able to see her grow up and support her along the way so that she would have a better life than I did; and I still hoped that I would be able to do this still one day, but I woke up.

Dream 2

This dream possibly started during the night and continued early the next morning, but I am not sure.

I just remember it possibly being early morning at my parents house and I went into their room to get something maybe, my dad was on their bed trying to sleep, and I remember him telling me a joke.

As I was leaving the room I heard the front door, my dad said that it was probably my mom returning from probably taking my male cousin DE and / or my aunt JE somewhere, and so I went to see who it was and it was my mom.

I greeted my mom as I either opened the main curtains in the kitchen and dining room or they were already open, there was something that I can not remember about my male cousin ME, and then I saw a man who looked like him across the field by the house to the left of The Action Packed House.

There were several small children with him, and he walked across the field and into our yard to get a ball or something that they possibly accidentally threw over our fence.

I remember us trying to figure out if it was my male cousin ME or not as he walked back to the children to play with them, but it was probably not him.

I remember us talking about how the man looked so much like ME, and then we started talking about ME but I woke up.

The end,

-John Jr


Ilaria Graziano & Yoko Kanno – From The Roof Top ~ Somewhere In The Silence (Sniper’s Theme)

from the roof top-somewhere in the silence [sniper’s theme]
G.I.T.S. Stand Alone Complex – From The Roof Top ~ Somewhere In The Silence (Sniper’s theme)

What Is It?

Today’s song is the song From The Roof Top ~ Somewhere In The Silence (Sniper’s Theme) by Ilaria Graziano and Yoko Kanno from Episode 14 (DI: Beware The Left Eye – POKER FACE) of the anime (animated) television show Ghost In The Shell: S.A.C. 2nd GIG and the music soundtrack Ghost In The Shell: Stand Alone Complex – Solid State Society O.S.T..

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from the roof top-somewhere in the silence [sniper’s theme] · Ilaria Graziano

攻殻機動隊 S.A.C. Solid State Society O.S.T.

℗ JVCKENWOOD Victor Entertainment

Released on: 2011-03-30

Composer: 菅野よう子
Lyricist: tim jensen

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Lyrics (By Google Search)

Clouds of another life
Wash across the sunlight
Changing shape as they go by
Thought I saw your face there
But like them
You just disappear
Disappear into empty sky
And so removed from reason
Have you ever had to reason?
The eagle comes and goes
To somewhere much higher
When the silence grows
Can you hear it, sniper?
Visions and memories
Where someone once laid flowers
For the past and things to come
Thought you were gone
But I can feel you
So I
Turn around
Turn around yes, and there you are
Here again
Can you give it some meaning?
Ask again, but you say nothing
Motion with no sound
Ice inside the fire
The stillness in the storm
Silence hides the sniper
Eagles come and go
To someplace much higher
And when the silence grows
Can you hear it, sniper?
What goes through your sniper’s mind?

Songwriters: Tim Jensen / 菅野 よう子”