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I barely remember part of the end of my last dream.
I remember being inside a multi-story building with some of my coworkers and their families, maybe some of my family, and maybe some other people.
I remember being on the ground level of the main floor / lobby / auditorium / whatever where there were indoor balcony-like areas for each floor that overlooked the area where I was standing with many of the others, and the others were standing along the balcony areas looking down where we were.
I am not sure if this was an all staff training event for The BP Library that was taking place in another city or if we were on a work trip or what was going on exactly, whatever was happening our families were allowed to be there, and we were possibly at the opening ceremony and / or watching a movie or something and / or was watching the first event.
I can not remember most of the dream so I have no idea, I just know that we were probably going to be going to take photographs next in a different part of the building on one of the upper floors, and I remember seeing my female coworker JB and her husband and her children on one of the balcony-like areas.
At some point I did not see JB and her family, I remember glancing around sometimes looking for them from where I was standing, but I was still not seeing them.
For some reason this bothered me, I felt restless / worried / maybe anxiety / et cetera, and this got worse as time went on.
For some reason it really bothered me that: I did not see them any more, that they had seemly disappeared, that I was not sure if they were okay or not, or if I would see them again, et cetera.
Me not seeing JB and her family anymore really bothered me, in the real world my body was possibly starting to feel a bit hot and maybe I was tossing and turning in bed a bit feeling some of the same feelings / emotions, and this did not feel good at all in the dream or the real world.
Instead of going to look for them I tried to tell myself that they had probably just stepped away for a moment or something and that things were probably okay, this probably did not help much, and I tried to avoid looking / glancing around for them much.
I told myself that I would just keep an eye out for them as we move to the next area and if I did not see them then, then I would probably ask around and look for them, and I hoped that we would move to the next area soon because this was really bothering me more than it should.
Not long after this it was time to start walking to the next area for photographs, I remember looking around as we walked, and I still did not see JB and her family but I kept looking around as we walked.
I woke up during this feeling the same emotions and I felt bad, and so the feelings continued into the real world even at work where I finally saw JB again for only the second time this week; and I did not talk to her beyond just saying good morning, I took my usual cautious approach, which made things worse.
Today I have thought about why did that bother me so much in the dream, and I tried to make sense of it.
It connects to some things from the real world known and unknown, some worries and fears and mysteries and feelings and thoughts and beliefs et cetera that probably need to be addressed, but some things are not completely clear.
The end,
-John Jr
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