At some point in this dream, I was in a grocery store with some of my family, and my male cousin DE.
At some point, DE showed and offered me a taste of fruit drink he was going to buy.
I did not try it, but I did try looking for it in the store so that I could buy some.
DE could not remember which aisle it was on, I was having difficulty trying to find it, and I woke up.
This dream took place during the day in my parent’s yard, and I was with my dad and my brother GC.
Behind my dad’s truck was a fictional somewhat large rotting tree.
My brother GC was in the tree as we talked, and my dad and I were on the ground.
At some point I noticed a branch on the tree that looked like it was about to fall, I warned GC, and he was able to jump down in time right before it fell.
My brother’s KDC & TDC & maybe even CC walked over as we moved further back by the entrance gate.
Our dad must have moved to the other side of the yard to continue his yard work, because I do not remember seeing him at this point.
While we were talking, the entire tree started to fall our way, and I only had enough time to yell for them to move because the tree was falling.
All of us moved to the right, except for GC, it happened so fast that we did not have enough time to see where the tree was falling other than toward us.
So most of us went right because there was more open space that way, but I am not sure why GC went left because the fence stopped him from being able to go any further.
After the tree fell, I glanced around to see if everyone was okay, I saw most of my brothers to the right of where the tree had fallen on the ditch by the entrance gate.
So it barely missed them, I did not see GC, I asked them if they saw GC, and I yelled his name to see where he was at.
There was no response, we started to glance around in a panic, and then we saw GC in the ditch.
He was looking at one of his legs, the tree was on it, it had fallen on his thigh & crushed it & broke his leg.
He was quietly in shock, he was not screaming or crying or talking or making any noise, he was just staring at his leg, not responding as I tried to talk to him.
Seeing this felt so real, and I became overwhelmed with emotions and thoughts et cetera, seeing my brother on the ground with his leg broken & thigh crush with a tree on it as he sat there in shock.
Especially since I am the oldest of my brothers.
There was nothing that we could do to undo this or heal this et cetera, other than try to get the tree off of his leg, and get him to the hospital.
Knowing this, feeling this, seeing this, thinking this, et cetera hit me all at once.
I felt shock, anger, sadness, helplessness, hopelessness, frustration, pain, and more.
It was one of those moments where you do not know what to do with all of that.
You want to reset time, leave your body, fall asleep, dream, scream, full your hair out, et cetera.
My wild reaction to all of this was to yell / scream to the void / world / universe / whatever, something like: “Why do bad things keep happening to us!?” or something like that.
I used that to let out / express all those things that I was feeling and thinking, et cetera at that moment; and it seemed that I was possibly also referring to some bad things that might have happened to us in forgotten parts of this dream and / or some previous forgotten dreams.
This all felt so real and overwhelming that I accidentally woke up as I was starting to yell out orders to my brothers as I ran forward to try to help save GC’s life / leg.
I woke up still feeling those negative emotions et cetera, it did not feel good, that dream definitely became a nightmare at the end.
I used the time it took to record my notes for this dream to try to recover enough to be able to go back to sleep.
- John Jr