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My Experience Having A Panic Attack (ANXIETY)

I am glad that Young Don The Sauce God figured out what was causing his anxiety and that he made a change that had a positive impact on his life, and I think that this will help other people too who might be having health issues as a result of coffee / caffeine use.

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Dreams

Mr. JM’s Ideas

I woke up a little before 5 AM this morning, and after that I could not really go back to sleep.

My anxiety levels increased I guess because this morning I will be returning to work for the first time unexpectedly even as the quarantine is still going on, and for a variety of other reasons.

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Dreams

My Former Classmate DH Opens A Gate / Fence For Me

Dream 1

The end of this dream seemed to be inspired by something work related that I am anxious about.

All that I can remember of this dream is that I was at work at The BP Library, I was all alone in the IT Department for the day (my other coworkers in the other departments were there though), and I was suddenly put in charge of handling all of the printing.

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Dreams

Where Is My Coworker JB And Her Family?

I barely remember part of the end of my last dream.

I remember being inside a multi-story building with some of my coworkers and their families, maybe some of my family, and maybe some other people.

I remember being on the ground level of the main floor / lobby / auditorium / whatever where there were indoor balcony-like areas for each floor that overlooked the area where I was standing with many of the others, and the others were standing along the balcony areas looking down where we were.

I am not sure if this was an all staff training event for The BP Library that was taking place in another city or if we were on a work trip or what was going on exactly, whatever was happening our families were allowed to be there, and we were possibly at the opening ceremony and / or watching a movie or something and / or was watching the first event.

I can not remember most of the dream so I have no idea, I just know that we were probably going to be going to take photographs next in a different part of the building on one of the upper floors, and I remember seeing my female coworker JB and her husband and her children on one of the balcony-like areas.

At some point I did not see JB and her family, I remember glancing around sometimes looking for them from where I was standing, but I was still not seeing them.

For some reason this bothered me, I felt restless / worried / maybe anxiety / et cetera, and this got worse as time went on.

For some reason it really bothered me that: I did not see them any more, that they had seemly disappeared, that I was not sure if they were okay or not, or if I would see them again, et cetera.

Me not seeing JB and her family anymore really bothered me, in the real world my body was possibly starting to feel a bit hot and maybe I was tossing and turning in bed a bit feeling some of the same feelings / emotions, and this did not feel good at all in the dream or the real world.

Instead of going to look for them I tried to tell myself that they had probably just stepped away for a moment or something and that things were probably okay, this probably did not help much, and I tried to avoid looking / glancing around for them much.

I told myself that I would just keep an eye out for them as we move to the next area and if I did not see them then, then I would probably ask around and look for them, and I hoped that we would move to the next area soon because this was really bothering me more than it should.

Not long after this it was time to start walking to the next area for photographs, I remember looking around as we walked, and I still did not see JB and her family but I kept looking around as we walked.

I woke up during this feeling the same emotions and I felt bad, and so the feelings continued into the real world even at work where I finally saw JB again for only the second time this week; and I did not talk to her beyond just saying good morning, I took my usual cautious approach, which made things worse.

Today I have thought about why did that bother me so much in the dream, and I tried to make sense of it.

It connects to some things from the real world known and unknown, some worries and fears and mysteries and feelings and thoughts and beliefs et cetera that probably need to be addressed, but some things are not completely clear.

The end,

-John Jr

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Dreams

Glasses + Mafias + Guilt + Insect Creatures = ?

Source: Wikimedia Commons

I fell asleep on the couch and had some dreams that I woke up remembering, but I forgot them before I could record them.

I got in bed and had more dreams that I did not record, and so now I can only remember barely part of 4 parts of my last dream.

Part 1

This part of the dream involved me looking at and comparing glasses (eyeglasses) online and maybe offline; which is what I was doing at the Zenni Optical and EyeBuyDirect websites before I went to sleep on the couch when I got too tired.

Out of curiosity I was wondering which of these two glasses frame colors does anyone reading this like better for someone like myself?

Square Glasses 2019321

Source: Zenni Optical

Square Glasses 2019323

Source: Zenni Optical

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Anyway, that is all that I can remember of this part of the dream.

Part 2

This part of the dream involved the mafia, but that is all that I can remember of this part of the dream.

Part 3

This part of the dream involved a thin man with medium-to-dark color skin wearing glasses who was a doctor, and he was looking at a painting that either someone else had painted or that he had painted.

The man’s wife was also a doctor and she had light-color skin, and they had a son who was still a child.

The man felt guilt and blamed himself over something involving his son, the son was suffering from something, and he felt that it was his fault so he was feeling all this guilt and blaming himself and thinking about this as he looked at the painting.

The painting was possibly outside along a dock area during the day, but I can not remember.

While doing this he also realized that he had possibly accidentally released a insect-like creature or creatures earlier, but I am not sure.

There was also something about the mafia in this part of the dream as well that I can not remember.

The man possibly got a call from another doctor or therapist or someone who let him know that his son was just suffering from anxiety, which is something that the man and his wife had also suffered from, and so it was not really his fault and they could treat his son now that they had a diagnosis and one that they also knew how to treat.

The man could finally stop blaming himself and burden of this guilt finally started to lift, and so the man called his wife to tell her the good news and he left to meet her so that they could tell their son together.

But that is all that I can remember of this part of the dream.

Part 4

The dream jumped to a multi-story apartment building that was owned by the mafia, and the security was handled by the mafia as well.

My female coworker DT was returning from shopping with a male bodyguard with light-color skin who was over the mafia security team at the apartment, and an assistant or friend who was helping hold her bags.

I wondered what and how was DT doing with a mafia bodyguard and why was she staying at a mafia owned apartment, and why did she seem like a VIP or something to them; but I am not sure if I was in the dream or not.

DT’s apartment room was on an upper floor and when they approached the door it was not closed all the way because earlier in the dream when someone went to close it something got stuck in the door which prevented it from closing all the way, but they did not notice this as they walked away.

DT’s bodyguard had everyone stop when he noticed this, he quietly signaled or called for some of the mafia apartment security team to come check it out, and two male mafia security guards with light-color skin wearing light bullet resistant vests with black submachine guns quickly and quietly walked over ready to clear the apartment room.

Hand signs were made and the two security guards burst into the room looking for threats, the head bodyguard stepped partly in the room, and then they saw a large insect-like creature moving along a wall so they shot it; and they shot one or two others.

They searched the room and eventually gave the clear sign, and DT and the others were able to enter the room.

The head bodyguard and the rest of the security team had no idea what those creatures were or where they came from, and so they sent out an alert to the rest of the security team and probably called for an exterminator and word was sent for the security to search the entire building for more and to secure any weaknesses in the defenses.

The head bodyguard also wanted to know why the door was not locked et cetera so he started an investigation into this, but I woke up.

The end,

-John Jr