Raggedy Ann Dolls In A Graveyard

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I got almost no sleep last night (an hour at most probably) because of anxiety about my job interview (which I had this morning, and it went well), I kept opening my eyes every few minutes overwhelmed by anxiety and not able to sleep, and my stomach felt very acidic and like I was having acid reflex; it was a terrible three hours as I tried to sleep, but at least I felt better when I got up and got the job interview done.

Dream 1

Amazingly I managed to have several short dreams and even more amazingly I barely remembered part of two of them, and the first dream took place during the night in a video game-like dream world that seemed to be inspired by the video game Vampire: The Masquerade – Bloodlines except that it was live-action; and I was in the dream inside a house with a male vampire with whitish colored skin, and a female vampire with whitish colored skin with short reddish colored hair wearing a dress who was probably from the Toreador vampire clan.

The male vampire was trying to unlock something that the female vampire was laying on, he needed to somehow use her to open it, and so she was laying on it as he tried to figure out how to solve the puzzle of opening it; but like a video game there were threats to interrupt you, and so zombie or deformed vampire-like creäture started to attack forcing him to have to deal with it.

I remember moving to hide in another room, the male vampire’s brother was on his way to help, and then the dream jumped to his brother riding in a convoy of old blackish colored sedans full of mafia-like men/male vampires in blackish colored suits who were probably from the Giovanni vampire clan; and they stopped to murder an entire rival group.

All of their hitmen had brownish colored skin, they drove their sedans outside of the one-story apartments that their rivals lived in, and then they shot the apartment building up with automatic weapons; and while they were doing this there were other people in the distance in other parts of this city.

After taking out their rivals, the brother and his convoy continued driving to go help his brother, but I woke up.

Dream 2

All that I can remember of the second dream is that it took place early in the morning outside near a fenced graveyard and field that was maybe near a college, I am not sure if I was in the dream or not, and Dashie (Charlie Guzman) from YouTube was recording himself for a Hanging With Dashie video as he was walking down a sidewalk near the fence on his way to the college-like area maybe.

Dashie was being his usual self, but something strange had happened in the graveyard where many female Raggedy Ann-like dolls with long reddish colored hair were spread around along the fence and on some of the graves and other area instead of being locked up in the stand/whatever where they were sold from; and Dashie noticed this, and he started filming this and commenting on how creepy it looked.

Standing on one of the graves was what looked like a woman disguised as one of these dolls, she was moving a bit and making strange facial expressions, and this made things even more creepy; and then Dashie noticed a long vertical cut in one part of the fence that a person could fit through, and on the other side of the cut fence was an old homeless woman with whitish colored skin with whitish/grayish colored hair with many missing teeth.

She smiled at Dashie and then she ran at the fence grabbing it and she made a creepy somewhat hissing-like/creature-like/zombie-like noise like she was showing off for his camera to scare the audience, she then laughed and smiled, and Dashie looked at the camera like he was a bit scared and like the woman was crazy; and he continued walking to get away from the creepiness, but I woke up.

The end,

-John Jr

11-5-2013 | Dream Journal | Signing Up For Mental Health Counseling

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I remember part of one interesting dream from last night that felt a bit strange compared to a normal/average dream and/or I felt a bit strange in the dream in a way or ways that I can not describe in words but it was still realistic enough for me to not realize that I was dreaming, but my memory of it is somewhat unclear in a few parts because I wasted time today trying to solve a computer problem (experimenting with upgrading from a Ubuntu Linux LTS (Long-Term Service) Release to a Ubuntu Linux Normal Release to see how reliable upgrading is, but the system failed to boot afterward like GRUB got corrupted or something like that so it was not reliable as possibly expected; and so I am testing ways to fix this so that I can help people with this problem in the future who have Ubuntu Linux installed and/or I will try another operating system like Linux Mint Debian instead to see if it is a better alternative) instead of recording or thinking about my dream; and so parts of this dream will be missing.

I remember being in a multi-story building on the first floor and for some unknown and/or known reason(s) I think that I was there to sign up for mental health counseling for help with anxiety and depression again and down one of the hallways there was an office that was probably behind half or mostly glass walls/windows on the left, on the right there was an office that you could walk inside where most of the office space in the room was behind a large wooden desk that probably had some sliding glass windows at the top to protect the workers, and this large desk probably blocked you from walking into the rest of the office.

I think that this part of the building or this building was supposed to be the D Mental Health Clinic even though it looked nothing like it and it was way bigger than it, there were more parts to this building that made it seem like this was the mental health clinic area but maybe there was a hospital in the building as well and some other types of areas that I did not get to see but I am not sure, and through some of the glass parts of the shared wall with the office on the left I saw my former mental health counselor Mrs. J standing near a desk alone; and the office on the left was larger than the office on the right and it had more desks, but I only remember seeing my former counselor Mrs. J in the office and so I assumed that the other workers were on their lunch breaks or something like that.

I hoped that my former mental health counselor Mrs. J would not see me as I walked to the office on the right that had an open door and so I tried to hide behind the non-glass parts of the wall as I stood in the doorway of the office on the right, I saw several female workers in the office on the right who all might have had whitish colored skin with long brownish and blackish and blondish colored hair but one of the them might have had brownish colored skin with blackish colored hair, and I told one of the female workers that I wanted to sign up for counseling for help with anxiety and depression and I told her that I had received counseling here before back in 2011 (I probably felt like it was time to get some help again finally, and I hoped that I would get some real/helpful/effective counseling/help this time because that is what I probably need to help me move forward).

Leonardo DiCaprio Teaching Something? | Many False Awakening Dreams

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Last night one of my teeth (either a recently filled tooth with complications or a dying tooth or another tooth with a cavity waiting to be filled) started bothering me just enough (not that bad, but just bad enough to prevent me from sleeping) to where I needed to take some Ibuprofen to go to sleep (my dentist appointment was pushed back by two more months unfortunately 😀 , but my tooth is not hurting this morning fortunately), once I went to sleep I slept pretty well until I woke up forgetting all of my dreams (I knew that I had some dreams and I am close to remembering at least part of one of the forgotten dreams) except for part of the end of one dream, but I went back to sleep dreaming that I was recording my dream and thinking about my dream and I would wake up realizing that I was only dreaming that I had not recorded my dream; but this cycle kept continuing for a few hours until I woke up permanently this morning, so I only remember some false awakening dreams, and amazingly I still remember part of the end of the one dream that my mind kept dreaming/thinking about in those false awakening dreams and real awakenings.

Dream 1

I forgot all the dreams before this, though I am close to remembering part of one of the forgotten dreams, and I forgot most of this dream; but I do barely remember part of the end of this dream, but it is a bit confusing and unclear.

Part of the end of this dream took place outside in a fictional city in a concrete/paved parking lot/street/sidewalk-like area but I could not tell the time of day because the colors outside were a bit strange/gray (like in real life today except that it is raining) in a way that made it hard to tell the time of day, I was walking with a crowd of people walking around a man who I think looked like the actor Leonardo DiCaprio (he might have looked like another man at first, but I am not sure), and Mr. DiCaprio seemed to be teaching/lecturing us about something that I can not remember as we all walked.

At some point we walked into the road and/or the parking lot area, oddly there was water/a pond or a liquid-like substance that was waist deep but I can not remember what color or colors it was (it was not clear, you could not see what was under the water, and maybe it was the color of black and white newspaper clippings oddly but that is a wild guess), and we walked in this waist deep water/liquid as Mr. DiCaprio continued teaching/his lecture and I think that he carried with him a large black colored circular plate that could float on the water with some objects on it that might have been small figures of people or represented people or something symbolic (this part is very unclear and confusing, I just know that he had some objects on the plate and I felt that they were symbolic and that they represented something different from their appearance); and at some point an unknown water creäture/creäture bit and/or grabbed me briefly from under the water, I only got a brief glance at it so I do not remember what it looked like, but the experience left me a bit afraid/shaken.

My heart rate increased, my blood pressure increased, my anxiety levels increased, et cetera as we continued walking and I probably held the area on my body where I was bitten (but I can not remember what part of my body it was); and I kept looking around for the creäture, hoping that it would not attack again, and I probably tried to warn some of the other people and I asked them if they saw the creäture too.

I think that a few of the other people briefly saw the creäture too and Mr. DiCaprio heard us talking and so he stopped his lecture to see what were we talking about, he noticed that something seemed to be wrong with me, and so he walked over to me to see what was wrong with me; and he checked my pulse, my blood pressure, my wound, et cetera.

He seemed very knowledgeable medically and he seemed to know how I was feeling/my mental and emotional state and he said that my pulse was high, my blood pressure was high, he saw that I was afraid of something and that my anxiety levels were high, and he said a few other things that were accurate/correct about me that I can not remember; and he recommended that I get checked by a doctor, so he asked anyone in the crowd if they were a doctor, but I can not remember if anyone in the crowd was a doctor or not.

I told Mr. DiCaprio about the creäture that attacked me and I recommended that we probably get out of the water/liquid and/or that we watch out for the creäture, I can not remember his exact response but I think that it was a bit strange and symbolic and interesting, and I think that he gave me an empty silver-colored metal paint can that had a thin metal handle and he poured the objects from his large black circular plate into the empty metal paint can; and he probably asked me to hold the paint can with the objects in it, and this probably would help avoid them being knocked into the water/liquid.

Mr. DiCaprio probably continued his lecture and I think that we all continued walking through the water/liquid but I am not sure, there was more to this part of the dream and there was more before this part of the dream and some of the symbolism in the dream was probably explained a bit by Mr. DiCaprio, but that is all that I can remember now after so many false awakening dreams and real awakenings.

False Awakening Dreams And Real Awakenings

My false awakening dreams all involved the first dream where I would wake up thinking about the dream and thinking that I was recording my dream by voice recording it sometimes, writing it sometimes, typing it sometimes, et cetera during the false awakening dreams.

My real awakenings would start with me still briefly thinking about the first dream and thinking that I recorded it but then I would realized that I did not record it and that my memories were of false awakening dreams, but every time I would be too comfortable/lazy to get out of bed; and so I would go back to sleep into another false awakening dream each time.

This cycle probably went on for at least two hours, and so it is amazing that I was able to remember anything at all; but unfortunately most of my dreams, and some of the best parts of the first dream and some of the explanations of the symbolism in that dream are/is missing now because of that cycle. 😦

But if I remember more during the day I will try to add it later. 😉

The end,

-John Jr

Temporarily / Almost Being In The CIA / CIA Tryouts?

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I remember part of one or two dreams from last night, with the first dream taking place mostly in a CIA safe house / building / training facility / whatever, but I can not remember the beginning of the dream.

Several people and I had been chosen by one or two men who were in the CIA for what I guess you could call CIA try-outs or something like that, where we were temporarily/somewhat part of the CIA or at least in consideration for becoming members of the CIA, and we were thrown into our jobs with no training or explanation of our jobs or mission(s) or anything; and I think that I had an important role in my team, but I had no idea what my job was or what I was supposed to be doing. 😀