Studio Ghibli’s Ponyo is a love letter to the environment and a call to action for all of us to start taking responsibility for the natural world. The film from Hayao Miyazaki involves a water-dwelling creature falling in love with a human, and the two figuring out how to maintain that relationship, either on land or in the sea.
Ponyo focuses on a more innocent and deeper love between children, and the love between them is representative of Sosuke’s respectful devotion to the environment.
I feel like ending this public blog after/before typing this dream, and there is so much that I experienced/felt that I am having a hard to time trying to even get myself to type all that I can remember, for some reason(s); and a lot of it is hard to describe and even in the dream I could not understand parts of it.
It took me almost two days to finally fight my feelings/brain lock to finish this dream and I briefly made my blog private due to my strange unknown feeling of wanting to close my blog as a result of this dream and maybe a few other reasons, I am not sure what happened in this dream to give me that feeling, but it must have happened during the parts that I forgot, probably the parts where I communicated with the being.
Due to the difficulty in fighting to type this dream, rushing through typing it, unclear memory after all that happened & how long I took to type it all, et cetera; what I typed below will not properly describe what I dreamed/experienced, it was too hard to describe, and I forgot a lot of the important parts so expect a lot of jibber jabber/a bad translation of my thoughts/experiences and a lot of errors and missing parts/details.
I had an amazing almost complete dream last night that had a lot of details, was long, had a pretty clear plot (if that is the word) & characters but it still had mysteries, it had action/drama/scariness/et cetera, it had strange unique feelings/experiences, and more but due to getting awakened by someone’s alarm clock/being a bit afraid when I woke up & a bit afraid/cautious to go back to sleep/annoyances in my environment/et cetera I forgot a lot of the important parts & details of this dream; unfortunately, but I do remember enough of the dream to give a basic overview of the dream, somewhat.
I woke from this dream at 7:Something AM still feeling a variety of hard to describe feelings like fear, surprise, feeling of being a bit drained, feeling the presence of the being, amazement, and a variety of other feelings that left me cautious to go back to sleep & I stayed in bed 3 hours after this dream never really going back to sleep deep enough to dream since I probably was too cautious to sleep deep enough to dream & so I kept waking up & mostly having semi-daydreams & thinking about the dream.
The dream had a beginning but I forgot it, there are some dream characters in the dream that I might have met during the beginning and/or I met them in some other dreams during the night or in the past and/or I had false memories of having known/met them, and so I only remember closer to the middle of the dream.
My direct family (except maybe my dad) and maybe a few other people were in a slightly fictional version of D near a fictional area not far from the FF Bank, there was a nice fictional house in this area, that might have been near or connected with another building.
I know that the beginning of the dream explains how and why we went to this house, who owned it & who lived there, and what happened exactly; but I forgot those important parts, unfortunately.
I just remember that something strange happened and my family (except maybe my dad), the other people, and I got trapped in the house by a unique/unknown hard to describe powerful being who I never learned what it/she was exactly.
It was like this being was semi-omnipresent in the house, like it was the environment (air, gravity, electricity, energy, magnetism et cetera) or was part of it and when you, it could communicate with us out-loud & in our minds & in other ways in a voice that was mostly female probably mixed with a male voice and/or a robotic-like voice, it probably would sometimes manifest/form itself in a living female form or a non-living female form (dolls, electrical devices) or a female ghost/spirit/energy/mist/whatever form), it felt like it might have drained us a bit and/or slowly learning everything about us and/or slowly connecting with us and/or slowly learning how to control/manipulate us et cetera, I think that when you first enter its environment/zone/it you can see an misty bluish and/or greenish and/or some other color(s) in an electrical/digital grid-like web that fills the environment, and there is so much more that could be said to try to describe this unique being but it is too hard to describe & my memory is unclear.
I remember us running around from the being but it had us trapped since it seemed to be the environment and so gravity felt heavier, the air felt thicker, you could feel the beings presence everywhere since it seemed to be almost everywhere at the same time like its body was the environment, you could feel a static electricity-like feeling on your skin & body, you felt like maybe it was slightly draining and/or connecting to us and/or breaking down our defenses to possess/control/become one with us or something, and it was slowly learning more about us using its many senses since we were trapped in it/its environment; but the being did have two weaknesses that I found, it was limited to the house/building it seemed (but maybe it could expand further if it trapped/used more people to power/energize itself, but I am not sure), and even though it was semi-all knowing of everything in its environment/it, the being could sense where you were & communicate with you but it could not see you or use all of its senses on you until it could lock its eyes/awareness on you (if that made sense) so it had to find you directly but if you moved around a lot or fast enough it took it longer to lock on to you with all of its senses.
This being communicated with us throughout the dream as we tried unsuccessfully to run and hide from it (but unfortunately I can not remember any of our conversations with her/it), since it was pretty much everywhere at the same time, and it came across as being female to me; but it only took a female form when it was able to lock on to us with all of its senses (maybe it would take a female form to better communicate with us in a way that would make us/me more comfortable), and I think that I felt that maybe it wanted to make its own family/world/whatever and/or wanted to trap people for energy maybe but I am not sure.
The being seemed to be part physical, part spirit/ghost/energy, part artificial/robotic/like it could go inside electronics/the internet/et cetera, part multi-dimensional, part deity, and many other things; like nothing that I have ever met before and it felt powerful.
Since we seemed to be in the being/in its environment it seemed connected with us in a way that probably allowed it to also communicate through feelings/knowings with us, but it seemed that this would only get stronger the longer that we stayed trapped & so it had to mostly communicate with us out-loud & in our minds.
Being in it/in its environment was unlike anything that I have every experienced, it was like being underwater without the water and without the floating or holding your breath, it was like being in consciousness or something; and like I said before it had heavier gravity, thicker air, a static electricity-like feeling, a slight digital/electrical-like grid-like web feeling & look (if you enter or exit it at first maybe or during occasional flashes if you tried to resist it), a mist-like look, a spirit/energy/whatever feeling/look/whatever, and more, it was something that you would have to experience/feel to understand.
The being was able to possess a few Human sized female dolls that were in the house and it moved & communicated through them during some points, at other times it took a ghost/mist/spirit/energy female form that could float/fly/et cetera, at other times it might have formed its own physical body or possessed someone (I am not sure about these two, just a wild guess), and it/she probably could sometimes appear to us in our minds.
Unfortunately I can not remember most of the important parts or details of what happened during the parts in the house/building running, hiding, and communicating with this being; I just know that I/we slowly started to learn some of its weaknesses, and I started trying to use that knowledge to escape and I kept trying to resist it though it was probably harder & it probably got stronger the longer that we were trapped.
Since moving around a lot and/or fast made it harder for the being to lock on to us, since it had to keep tracking you until all of its senses could lock on to you, I kept running around trying to escape some of its senses & I keep resisting it long enough so that I could escape; but it still could communicate with me/us in our minds & out-loud, but it could not see me or materialize/form its female form or completely sense me during the times that I kept running & moving around.
I remember that it locked on to me once as I got closer to one of the rooms that had an exit and it materialized to me in its spirit/energy/mist/whatever female form, before this it was communicating with me in my mind & out-loud but I tried to ignore it mostly, and we had a conversation but I can not remember what was said; and then I kept running & moving, and I was able to escape some its/her senses again and I finally with a lot of effort/resisting, I escaped through a door that probably went into a building that was connected to this house or something.
The being was not able to follow me or did not follow me (though she/it wanted to and/or wanted me to come back) and the being was not in this part of the building, and so the environment felt normal; and I escaped outside during the day, and I ran to an area near where FF Bank should be to get help from a fictional dream character who I somehow knew from past memories.
I had memories of this dream character who looked like Alcide Herveaux’s father (Jackson Herveaux) from the TV show True Blood, played by Robert Patrick, and I knew that he had knowledge/experience with supernatural-like things from my past memories that are probably fictional or from past forgotten dreams; and maybe he was not a normal Human or Human (on True Blood he is a werewolf), and maybe I was not a normal Human but I am not sure & I was not sure even in the dream.
He lived in a small somewhat dirty one floor house with a porch, he was a bit dirty literally with old dirty jeans and an old dirty t-shirt or muscle shirt, he acted a bit like he had somewhat given up on life & mostly sat around drinking beer & watching TV & reading & sitting on his porch, he had no friends or family who visited him really it seemed & he seemed to be more of a loner & a bit paranoid, but I knew that he had knowledge/experience with supernatural-like stuff & I trusted him and he was probably the only person who I trusted and who could help give me the information that I needed.
He had the door open with the screen door closed but unlocked, his house was dimly lit & pretty dark, and I found him in the kitchen getting a beer or something; I forgot to mention that he did not trust a lot of the electronics/technology of the modern world like the internet/computers because he felt/knew that certain people could easily spy/track you and your information, and so he stored most of his knowledge in his brain & maybe a bit of it encoded in writings that he hid in his house and I remember recommending that maybe he save some of that information digitally & offline & encrypted on a computer but he would not & I could understand why but I felt it was sad that a lot of that knowledge would be lost when he dies.
His knowledge involved a lot of supernatural-like things that he had experienced and researched over the years, things that many people have not seen/heard/experienced, and things not currently proven by science yet; and he had directly met a variety of beings not currently recognized by science yet, and so he knew of some of them personally.
I told him that I needed his help, that he was the only person that I knew that I could trust, and that I needed help now; and he was wondering what the big deal/problem was, and so I told him how serious the situation was and that I would not be bothering him if it were/was not serious.
He knew that I was not the type to be playing a prank on him and he had never seen me act so serious, and so he knew that whatever I needed help with was serious; and I tried to explain the situation and the being to him.
From what I described he said that he heard of a being/some beings before that might fit/match what I described, but he needed to see it for himself to be sure; and so he asked me to take him to the house/building (which was only about two buildings from his house) to see the being, and I explained to him that we could not get too close or it would trap us/pull us/attract us into it/its environment.
We walked to the building that was connected to the house or near the house, there was a business or offices or a restaurant or something there, and one of the bathrooms in a hallway of the building might have led to the house because we went outside one of the bathrooms & I could see/sense the being in there; and so I once again explained to him not to get too close and do not touch the area where the being is or you will being pulled/attracted into it and it would start connecting/controlling/draining/learning/whatever you.
There were a few people walking through the hallway as we stood outside of the bathroom and I might have went inside, and I might have reached my hand inside the bathroom to touch the air to see if it was the being in there; and it was and I briefly saw the colored digital/electrical grid-like web/mist and I felt the many feelings/differences that I described when inside the being/its environment, but I pulled away as quickly as I could.
I went back out and he went near the bathroom entrance to investigate while I stood outside the bathroom, but then an obese woman started walking into the bathroom & I tried to warn her not to go inside; but she went inside anyway.
I waited for a moment and I called out to him & the woman, but they did not respond; and I walked toward the entrance to investigate and the obese woman had walked into the being/its environment and he was in it as well, but the woman was further in it.
I did not want to go into the being/its environment because it could trap me too and I feared that since I had already been trapped once that it would be easier for it to trap me again, but I also felt that my resistance to it was stronger; but I needed to save them, they were slowly moving further inside in a hypnotized-like state, and then I entered the being/its environment.
It felt stronger now, like he and the woman’s energy had made the being stronger, it seemed that his energy had really given the being a boost; and I was having a hard time resisting but my resistance was stronger and I felt the same strange differences in its environment like I described earlier like being underwater without water & the heavy gravity & thick air & static electricity feeling et cetera.
I grabbed the obese woman’s hand and his hand, and I used all my concentration resisting & pulling them back out of the bathroom; and with a lot of effort I managed to pull them out of the bathroom, and we returned to normal but their memory of what happened after they stepped in the bathroom was gone I think.
I asked him why did he not follow my instructions about not getting too close to the being, and he told me that he just remembered feeling attracted/pulled toward it; and then that was all that he could remember.
I might have seen or predicted that other people who walked into the bathroom had already been pulled/attracted inside, and that maybe that the being was getting stronger and maybe it was spreading further out; and I feared that it would keep pulling/attracting people to and so we needed to do something to stop people from going near it and/or stop the being.
I do not think that even he knew what the being was or how to stop it or how to contain it, and so we left back to his house to search through his hidden notes & his library to try to figure out what the being was and what could we do about it; but I got awakened by someone’s alarm clock.
I barely remember part of my last dream from last night, which took place in an area that was part LC and part LV, and my family & I were there.
My mom wanted to look around some fictional stores that led to where the cinema in Lv should be, and part of the dream involved us shopping.
At some point I walked near the road to an area like the parking lot by the Civic Center in LC, and I came across various people.
At some point I came across a man who knew my family and he was carrying what I will call a water holder, it was like a waterproof fabric or leather material that could be flattened like a sheet/blanket, and you had to use a ring to keep it in a certain shape to hold water properly.
The man was holding some fish, crawfish and/or shrimp, and some other sea/lake animals in it.
I asked him if I could hold the water holder and he said yes & he let me hold it, and then I asked if I could show my family & I would give it back to him later; and he said yes, and he walked off.
At some point I was standing by grass and I accidentally dropped the water holder because the ring came off & so the water holder lost its shape, and the water & sea/lake animals fell to the ground among the tall grass.
I was only able to find some of the sea/lake animals and I got some more water for the ones that I found, I looked hard but the grass was thick & tall in certain areas, and so I was a bit stressed/worried about losing some of the man’s sea/lake animals.
At some point I came across my family again and I told them about what had happened & I showed them the water holder, and some of my family members from my mom’s side of the family started to show up for a family gathering that was going to take place soon.
They told me the name of the man who owned the water holder (it started with a C I think) & where he lived, and I decided to go buy some more sea/lake animals to hopefully replace the missing ones.
I then planned to take the water holder back to the man, tell him what happened, offer to pay or replace any of the sea/lake animals that were still missing, and then go to the family gathering.
I think that I took the water holder to the man & told him what happened and he said that it was okay, and then I left for the family gathering; but I woke up.
I only remember part of one dream from last night and I forgot most of the important parts of the dream, which took place during the day in a fictional version of D, and I was near downtown D at some point; and I remember driving my automobile through downtown D at some point, but I can not remember what happened before this point.
Other people were also driving in other automobiles and I seemed to be following them, and a car cut in front of me at some point, which annoyed me; and so I tried to pass them up to get my spot back at some point.
Last night I remember part of a very strange dream that felt/looked very strange (it was one of those dreams that my words can not properly describe, but I will try my best, it was one of those dreams where you would have to have been there to understand what it felt like & what it was like), which took place in the middle of nowhere, a small world / space / room / dimension / whatever that did not make much sense; and it was like being trapped in a limbo-like place or something.
It was almost like being trapped in a room that had its own environment or something, and that room felt like it was in space or nowhere; it is hard to describe.
There were other people there, a few of whom were former classmates of mine and my mom was there, but I can not remember who else was there.
It was not a room in the normal sense but an enclosed area with its own strange semi-outdoor/semi-space-like feeling to it, instead of a ceiling there probably was a sky-like area without the normal sky look, maybe more like a barrier or nothingness maybe; and instead of walls there was maybe a barrier or nothingness.
I remember feeling trapped, we all felt trapped, and we had no idea how to escape or where we were.
I think that there were small floating platforms/land areas that were not connected to each other, and that is what we lived on; and you would have to jump to another platform/land area to reach it and/or I think that there were a few strange moving floating vehicle-like platforms that you could also use to reach other platforms.
Most of the platforms were rectangular shaped and some had land, water, snow, ice, et cetera; while other platforms were just platforms where you could sleep, talk, walk, et cetera on.
One platform had large ice structures with snow on the ground, frozen water, and maybe an unfrozen lake for drinking water; and it was probably the largest platform, and at some point several people and I were on this platform when some of the ice structures started to melt.
Behind one of the melting ice structures, which looked like natural ice structures, a bear came out and attacked us; and several people were killed, and there was a panic but I am not sure if we killed the bear or not, I think that we did.
After the attack with several people dying, things started to get worse, there was already a problem with boredom/loss of hope of escaping/et cetera for some people; so some people either killed themselves and/or they died for various reasons and/or some of them disappeared/were magically gone when we would wake up for the next day.
This dream took place over an unknown number of days or weeks or months or years, it seemed like a long time, like we would be trapped forever; and slowly people went missing, and we had no idea what happened to them.
I remember talking with the other people, including my mom, and I started trying to investigate how people kept going missing and how could we escape this place; and I remember exploring some of the platforms where people went missing, and I remember using one of the moveable floating platforms that were vehicle-like.
This place had a strange feeling(s) to it that is very hard to describe, I remember thinking/investigating/and examining my feelings; and I felt mostly hopeless about escaping or solving the mystery of how people kept going missing.
I felt trapped and limited, among other feelings, and it seemed that even if we found a way out of this place, that we would be in the middle of nowhere in space or in nothingness or in another dimension or something.
It was like we were not supposed to leave, like something wanted us trapped, and that we were all going to die and/or go missing eventually; but I tried to have some hope, and I continued my investigation, but I woke up.
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