Struggling To Balance Something And A Strange Reaction

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I woke up to use the bathroom at least twice but for some unknown reason I did not voice record my dreams, maybe I had a false awakening dream where I recorded them or something, but I can not remember.

Something strange happened during my last dream that also effected / affected me in the real world and I could not got back to sleep after this or if I did it was very short low-level sleep or semi-sleep, I kept trying to sleep but I felt weird and I would have a strange reaction sometimes when thinking about what happened in that dream and something else and I wondered if it was something serious or not and if I would be able to go to work or not.

So now I barely remember part of the end of my last dream, I just remember being inside what I think was a one-story building that was a multi-purpose building with many hallways, and maybe one part of the building was The BP Library where I work because I remember seeing some of my coworkers like my coworker Mrs. MH but I am not sure.

One part of the building was possibly hospital-like but I am not sure, there was at least one other part or more, but I can not remember those parts.

At some point I remember walking through a hallway, I walked through a door to reach another area, and my coworker Mrs. MH and several other people were on the other side of the door.

I was holding several objects that I can not remember in my left hand and I had my arm extended in front of me with my palm up with the objects balancing in my palm, but I felt strange in the back of my head maybe on my left side and I felt shaky down maybe my back and at the back of my head and I was having difficulty keeping the objects balanced because of this strange feeling and reaction.

My coworker Mrs. MH commented about how I was struggling to keep the objects balanced, and I wondered what was going on with my body / brain that was causing this.

It felt weird and then I could feel my body in bed, and it was happening to my body in the real world so I woke up.

My head felt congested and when I thought about that part of the dream and when I thought about something else that I can not remember and maybe when I turned a certain way I would get the same feelings and reactions that I assumed were happening with my body which felt shaky in the back of my head and maybe my back and maybe arm but I am not sure.

This kept happening and I could not go back to sleep really and I felt strange and when this would happen I probably felt a bit weaker, and this worried me a bit.

I forgot to mention that in the dream when this was happening I think that I mentioned something to myself about a memory, that maybe this started happening when I was thinking about a memory, a memory that I assumed to possibly belong to someone else.

I wondered if this was happening because of that memory and if this reaction was somehow connected with that memory, maybe something traumatic happened in that memory that triggered this, but I have no idea.

I felt weird after getting out of bed (in my head mostly, and so I was a bit off and maybe my reaction time was a bit slower at first) and at work at first and my mood was not so good at first but I returned to normal eventually.

I will see if it happens again.

The end,

-John Jr

Holding A Baby In A Hospital

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Last night I barely remember part of two dreams, with the first dream taking place in a hospital, and I was there with my family; and at some point one of my parent’s went somewhere in the hospital & they wanted me to hold & watch a baby for them until they came back.

I am not sure why we were at the hospital, maybe my mom was sick, because I am not sure if I saw her at this point or not; or maybe one of my brothers was in the hospital or my grandfather, I do not know.

I am not sure who the baby was or who the baby was for exactly, but I think that it was either one of my brothers who was now a baby again for some reason or it was me (I doubt that) as a baby or it was someone else; I think that it was one of my brothers probably, because the baby boy looked very familiar with some features of my brothers & I, and I think that I remember thinking that it was nice that one of my brothers was a baby again instead of the annoying brats, I mean well-adjusted kids, that they are now. 😀

I remember being in a small windowless waiting room-like area, we must have been at the hospital for a long time, because the baby went to sleep while I was holding it & I started to almost take a nap; and while I was almost taking a nap, a nurse came to look at the sleeping baby, and she was saying how cute he was.

I opened my eyes to thank her and I said a few things to her, and a few minutes later the baby & I went to a room with beds in it; I guess that they had some beds for people who would stay over-night in the waiting room, because the room of beds was connected to the waiting room.

When the baby was awake earlier, I remember talking to him and playing little games to make him laugh, and I probably thought of some memories when I used to help raise my brothers when they were babies.

Now that the baby was sleep and I was tired, I laid the baby on the bed, and I laid on the bed in a way where the baby could not fall off the bed so easily; I decided to try to stay awake for a while to make sure that the baby would not fall off the bed, but I woke up.

The end,

-John Jr 🙂