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Now this was a surprise, I was starting to think that Communitychannel (Natalie Tran) had retired from YouTube, I am glad that she finally made a video again.

George Clooney And An Old Computer

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I forgot all of my dreams from last night except for the end of my last dream which involved several people and I, including George Clooney, walking into what looked like the living room of The E House.

This room was possibly part of or was connected to a fictional version of The BP Library, I remember Mr. Clooney carrying a large heavy old tan or aged off-white horizontal computer with an old heavy mounted CRT monitor that was the same color as the computer, and I remember Mr. Clooney wanting to get the computer working again.

I Have A Baby Daughter?

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Dream 1

Unfortunately I did not record this dream the first time that I woke up, and so I can not remember most of it now and what I remember is unclear and may contain errors.

The end of this dream took place during the day, I remember going inside a small train cart / storage container / shipping container / tiny house / small mobile home / whatever like building or whatever, and it was in a quiet mostly secluded area that may have been near a quiet road.

I remember a woman and a man with maybe light-color skin showing up and / or being there, I am not sure if I lived there or if this was just being used as a meet up location or what, I just know that the woman had a baby girl with her who was probably very young like she was possibly very recently born; and the baby was probably sleep or too young to open her eyes yet.

I can not remember the details unfortunately, but I think that the woman said that the baby girl was my daughter which confused and shocked me even in the dream; I asked how in the world was this possible (because I probably had never even had sex before with anyone (and even if I did I would use protection) and I probably never willingly donated sperm to a sperm bank), and the woman explained but I can not remember the details now unfortunately.

I think that things did not happen normally, the woman and I probably never had sex unless I was raped or something when I was unconscious or something, and so somehow the woman had gotten my sperm et cetera probably and my sperm was probably taken without my knowledge or consent but I am not sure how.

Maybe someone stole my sperm and used it at a sperm bank, maybe someone stole some of my DNA or whatever and experimented with it, et cetera but I can not remember what the woman told me about how she got pregnant with my baby; I may have even partly joked about if this was some kind of virgin birth or miracle baby or magical baby.

Whatever the situation was I probably did not have a legal obligation and I was not a willing or knowing participant in whatever led to her pregnancy, and it was probably no fault of my own.

I am not sure if the woman gave me any proof that I was the father, I assume that she possibly had some kind of evidence that was possibly test results of the baby girl and of DNA taken from me without my knowledge or consent, and maybe she even showed me that we were a match on something like Family Tree DNA where I got my genealogical DNA test done in real life.

I did not know this woman and I had probably never met her before and here she was showing me this probably newly born baby girl saying that I was the father under these strange circumstances outside of my control, and to make things even more surprising and shocking is that she was here to give up the baby girl because she did not want her; and she wanted me to have the baby.

Even as crazy as this situation was and even with how I feel about something like this and even with my current situation in life, I decided to accept the baby girl and become her father legally I assume, we possibly did some paperwork but I can not remember.

I just remember the woman and man leaving with me standing there holding my baby daughter inside this small building wondering what in the world I was going to do now, and what kind of mess have I gotten myself into; regardless I was going to try to be the best father that I could, but before I could even finish thinking about the situation the woman and the man returned.

The woman had changed her mind and she wanted the baby girl back, now the situation was even crazier, but after making sure that she was sure about this I gave her the baby girl back but maybe no paperwork was done to make this official (if any had been done previously).

I actually did not want to give up my daughter at this point but the woman was the mother and she seemed to really want her daughter now, and so I gave her up hoping to at least be able to stay in contact with my daughter and have a part in her life even though I had no legal or even moral obligations in this strange situation.

The dream jumped to the future, unfortunately I never did get to see or communicate with my daughter again like I had hoped, and all I got were unclear bits and pieces of information and maybe sometimes unclear broken up images about and of my daughter that were sent by email in holds lists-like lists like I get every work day for work.

This made me a bit sad, I had hoped to be a part of my daughter’s life, and I wanted to be able to see her grow up and support her along the way so that she would have a better life than I did; and I still hoped that I would be able to do this still one day, but I woke up.

Dream 2

This dream possibly started during the night and continued early the next morning, but I am not sure.

I just remember it possibly being early morning at my parents house and I went into their room to get something maybe, my dad was on their bed trying to sleep, and I remember him telling me a joke.

As I was leaving the room I heard the front door, my dad said that it was probably my mom returning from probably taking my male cousin DE and / or my aunt JE somewhere, and so I went to see who it was and it was my mom.

I greeted my mom as I either opened the main curtains in the kitchen and dining room or they were already open, there was something that I can not remember about my male cousin ME, and then I saw a man who looked like him across the field by the house to the left of The Action Packed House.

There were several small children with him, and he walked across the field and into our yard to get a ball or something that they possibly accidentally threw over our fence.

I remember us trying to figure out if it was my male cousin ME or not as he walked back to the children to play with them, but it was probably not him.

I remember us talking about how the man looked so much like ME, and then we started talking about ME but I woke up.

The end,

-John Jr

The G House | A Movie | My Coworker Mrs. RB | The List

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I only saved a few quick text notes of some of the dreams that I had, and so some dreams are missing and most details are missing.

Dream 1

This dream involved The G House, I remember going to The G House, and maybe at some point my male cousin DE showed up but that is all that I can remember of this dream.

Dream 2

This dream involved a movie about a timid man with medium-color skin with black hair who was about to marry a mean stuck-up woman with medium-color skin with long black hair, and they had recently bought a house.

A woman with dark-color skin with long black hair who possibly knew the man rang / rung the doorbell, and the fiance answered the door.

The woman was there to see the man, but the fiance treated her badly and probably wanted her to leave and they started arguing.

The woman probably felt that the man deserved better and that his fiance treated him badly, which she did, but that is all that I can remember of this dream.

Dream 3

This dream took place during the day outside in my parents yard near the automobiles, and me and my coworker Mrs. RB are talking.

I remember sitting in a chair at some point as we talked, and Mrs. RB gave me some words of encouragement about something that I can not remember because something seemed to be bothering me.

Talking to Mrs. RB was helping, but that is all that I can remember of this dream.

Dream 4

In this dream I had a list of things that I needed to do so I was slowly doing them during the dream as I did other things like go to work at The BP Library, then I went with my mom in her automobile somewhere, and we got blocked at the railroad tracks before you get to The D Post Office by some young men playing American football in full pads / helmets / uniforms so we had to cross part of a fictional field on the right side of the road.

The football players did not see us and almost backed into us, and at some point my mom drove me back to work.

At work I continued trying to work on my list and maybe work, and I remember my former female coworker ML being there and she was working at The BP Library again in a higher position than me so she ordered me to do something that I can not remember.

But that is all that I can remember of this dream.

The end,

-John Jr

A Woman Trying To Force Me To Stay

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*Lazy Overview*

Dream 1

There was a lot more to this dream that I can not remember.

This dream took place at an interesting and strange building and campus that was like a resort, college, shopping mall, my parent’s yard and house, office building, and more; and some areas were from and / or inspired by past dreams.

This building and campus had multiple floors and many halls and rooms and was very multi-purpose with indoor and outdoor areas, and I possibly had a backpack and one thing inside of it was a list on white paper of various activities that were going to take place at different times inside and outside this building and campus.

I wanted to attend some of these events so I would take out the list sometimes to see which activity was starting next and I would go to it, unfortunately I can not remember most of my interesting and strange journey to and from and at these activities, but I do remember a few things.

One activity that I remember going to took place outside during maybe late in the afternoon or early evening in an area that looked like the left side of the field of The D Junior High School that is almost never used, and this activity was possibly hosted by Rooster Teeth and Burnie Burns and other YouTubers were there like Angry Joe (Joe Vargas) who was doing a live skit or show or something like that.

After that I went back inside the building and at some point I ended up in the area that was like my parent’s yard and house, and we had a fictional area of our yard where a part of the building had a big opening that was supposed to be our storage building but it looked like a large area inside the building.

My brother GC and my dad were in the yard and I stopped to help them move some things from the fictional huge storage building that was really part of the building, and when I was moving something there was a strange creature on it that looked a bit like maybe a combination of a crawfish and scorpion and praying mantis and lobster.

It had an exoskeleton that was black and shaped more like a scorpion, its head was possibly insect like and it stood up like maybe a praying mantis, its arms were probably like crawfish claws, and its tail was probably like a lobster and maybe even a scorpion.

I was holding an object that it was on so I could only hold it back with one hand to stop it from moving or attacking me, I told my brother GC about it and he probably took care of it as I held it while moving the object that it was on, and after my brother GC left our dad and me were talking near the entrance to the storage building when I heard a noise inside of it.

At first I thought it was a rat or something but then it sounded it bigger so I grabbed a crowbar and I sneaked inside, I heard a baby crying, and then around a corner I saw a woman with light-color skin with yellow hair in a ponytail who was possibly a former schoolmate of mine who possibly was in the same grade as my male cousin DE back in high school who used to have friends on Eastside and she used to give them rides in her car sometimes and in this dream she had a baby and a baby stroller.

It seemed that she was taking a shortcut through the building by crossing our huge storage building which seemed to be maybe in the middle of the building, I have no idea how my parent’s yard was inside this building and still seemed to be outside which makes no sense, but it was pretty cool and the storage building was so large that it was a bit scary.

I did not let her see me and I walked back to let my dad know that it was just someone crossing through the storage building, and then I continued my journey to the next activity which was one of the last activities possibly.

I got lost in some parts of the building that were resort-like and office-like and from or were inspired by some past dreams, and the resort areas possibly reminded me of the resort from the movie The Shining.

These areas had many halls and rooms and looked similar, and I started to see more people in offices and some who seemed to be applying for jobs and I saw some businesses.

As I walked through one small mall-like area on a hall that had bathrooms and where you could set up small shops I saw a woman who possibly had medium-color skin at first with short medium-color / dark-color hair setting up something for maybe an activity or shop or something art related or something, and so I said something to her as I walked by just being friendly.

The woman stopped me to talk a bit, she commented on my clothing style, and maybe started talking about style and art or something and how she was setting up for one of the activities on my list.

I told her that I was trying to find the next and possibly last activity and that I was on my way there now, and she told me that it was her activity but I did not think that was correct so I was going to take my list out of my bookbag to check but she kept stopping me verbally and physically.

The woman’s appearance changed without me noticing it to light-color skin and she now looked and spoke a bit like a larger and less attractive American version of a Leah Hather-like woman who was either desperate to have someone at her activity and / or was interested in me and / or was a bit unstable and / or was very needy et cetera, and I tried to handle the situation politely.

The woman kept talking to me and trying to stop me from leaving her and she wanted me to stay for her activity, so far I was the only person there, and she kept stopping me from checking the list to see where and when the activity that I wanted to attend would start.

She physically grabbed me several times and she became loud and a bit crazy, and she moved me to an outdoor area with people around who were staring sometimes as she got loud and crazy with me.

I tried to keep her calm and I tried to let her know that I needed to check my list and make sure that this was the correct activity because I did not think that it was, but she kept making up lies and excuses and trying to stop me.

I did not want to cause a scene so I tried to think of a compromise to where she would let me leave peacefully with the chance that I might return to her activity, and I mentioned this to her but she probably was rejecting it.

I was getting annoyed at this point and I was about to take out the list and look at it and leave because I could easily defend myself from her, I was tired of her trying to hold me hostage here, and I was tired of trying to be nice to avoid causing a bigger scene.

I decided to try a few more times to handle this situation before leaving.

I wondered why was this woman so desperate to keep me here, I was actually interested in talking with her a bit at first, but I wanted to go to the other activity first; but seeing how crazy and needy she was acting made me want to keep my distance and escape and avoid her now.

I woke up before I made my last attempts before leaving.

Dream 2

This dream involved my brother GC and me being in another city at maybe a hotel, it was possibly evening or night but I can not remember, and I remember us leaving the hotel by foot to go somewhere.

As we were crossing the parking lot I realized that I was carrying my glass bottle that I keep on the floor under my computer to roll under my feet sometimes to help prevent plantar fasciitis, and so I was going to hide it in the parking lot until I got back but then I decided to throw it away instead.

There was possibly a time jump to the next morning and I was inside a building like the one in the first dream or the same one, and something happened that I can not remember.

I remember walking toward an area in the building that was The BP Library even though it did not look like it and I saw my female coworkers Mrs. LF and T, I stopped to talk to them, but that is all that I can remember of this dream.

The end,

-John Jr