My Experience Having A Panic Attack (ANXIETY)

I am glad that Young Don The Sauce God figured out what was causing his anxiety and that he made a change that had a positive impact on his life, and I think that this will help other people too who might be having health issues as a result of coffee / caffeine use.


Coping With Anxiety And Panic Attacks

Source: Amazon

What is it?

The 1997 book Coping With Anxiety And Panic Attacks by Jordan Lee.

Source: Amazon

What is it about?

Here is an editorial review on Amazon that does a great job describing this book:

Editorial Reviews

From School Library Journal

Gr 7 Up–In the first section, Lee identifies the different forms of anxiety and panic and explains the human body’s physiological response to both.

She also defines and clarifies the differences between simple and social phobias, obsessive-compulsive disorders, and ordinary anxiety.

The author then examines the biological and emotional causes of anxiety, including stress, trauma, fear, and rigid parenting.

This section also discusses the physical consequences of anxiety such as ulcers, sleep disorders, and increased risk of other illnesses.

The next part explores the treatment of everyday anxiety and provides practical advice on stress management.

The final section outlines treatment options for more severe disorders.

This book is readable and well organized; its clear style, realistic examples, and practical advice guarantee its usefulness for both self-help and reports.

It moves beyond Michael Maloney and Rachel Kranz’s Straight Talk About Anxiety and Depression (Facts on File, 1991) to make an important and clear distinction between common, everyday anxiety and more serious disorders.

Sheila G. Shellabarger, Fordham Health Sciences Library, Wright State University, Dayton, OH

Copyright 1998 Cahners Business Information, Inc.

What do I like about it and what might other people like about it?

I like that this book was a quick, simple, and easy read that surprisingly gave a pretty good short overview of anxiety and panic disorders and some straightforward practical advice that you can apply in your life now to help you cope and / or overcome them.

Final Thoughts

This book was so short and easy to read that I was able to finish it in a couple of days, probably making it the first book that I have finished reading this year so far (I paused from two other books to finish this one first), and so you know that it is an easy read if I actually can finish it and finish it that fast.

I am amazed that something so short and basic actually gave some simple advice that I can apply now, and so it gave me some things that I have heard before in an easier to follow format that left me feeling more capable of adapting some of it to my life now.

The end,

-John Jr


The Sopranos: Can Tony Soprano Be Cured? | Video Essay

Source: YouTube

The other day the ScreenPrism YouTube channel had another good video essay, this time about the character Tony Soprano from the television show The Sopranos (which I have heard of, but I have never seen), and the video was called The Sopranos: Can Tony Soprano Be Cured? | Video Essay:

I think that they did a good job with this video as usual, and it made me curious about maybe trying to watch this show one day.

The end,

-John Jr


Some Children Trying To Sell Some Things To Me

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This morning my dreaming and sleep got interrupted by something strange happening to my body so I forgot most of my dreams, this strangeness prevented me from going back to sleep, and then I got up trying to figure out what was happening and trying to stay calm and it was a strange combination of feelings and reactions going on with my body that I do not feel like wasting time trying to explain because is not easy to explain and I do not feel like it.

But I will say that it involved my head (brain), stomach, chest, heart, maybe eyes, et cetera.

I came close to thinking about going to the emergency room but I managed to start recovering after I did some burpees to test whether I was having a heart attack and/or dying, after passing the test I started to feel a bit better, and I walked around until I recovered enough to go back to sleep.

I am not sure what happened but it felt like a combination of: maybe a reaction to something that I ate or drank and I did not rinse the toothpaste out of my mouth before going to sleep last night, possible congestion in my head, panic attack, and a few other things; but who knows.

Dream 1

All that I can remember of this dream from last night is that it possibly took place somewhere in Africa but I am not sure, I remember a man with very dark-brownish or blackish colored skin with short dark-colored hair, and he spoke English with an African accent of some kind.

The dream took place during the day and we were probably outside, this dream was probably partly inspired by part of a film (maybe Hotel Rwanda) that my dad was watching part of last night that had the actor Don Cheadle in it; but that is all that I can remember of this dream.

Dream 2

All that I can remember of this dream from last night is that it took place during the day outside, I was returning to my parent’s yard on foot, and at the main double gates I was greeted by some fictional children in the neighborhood who were trying to sell me something that I can not remember; but that is all that I can remember of this dream.

Dream 3

All that I can remember of this dream from last night is that it possible was partly inspired by the video game Fallout 4, I was doing something in the dream that was similar to something involving settlements in that game but I can not remember what, but then my dream and sleep got interrupted by something strange happening to my body that almost seemed like I was dying and I came close to thinking about going to the emergency room.

The end,

-John Jr


Nora Sergeant

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Dream 1

I barely remember part of two dreams from last night, with the first dream taking place in a fictional area where my cousin DE and his sister my cousin DE, were visiting me or I was visiting them during the day; but I can not remember most of the details of the dream.

I remember that DE said that it was a special day, a Halloween-like day or something like that, where they would watch scary movies and eat candy or something like that; and so we watched something or did something that I can not remember, but I remember that whatever it was caused me to have a bit of a fight or flight response & this part of the dream kept repeating until I woke up.

This part of the dream repeated so much and bothered me enough that I woke up, in the dream I think that I was able to feel my heartbeat moving oddly, and when I woke up my heartbeat was odd I think.

I remember feeling strange like I was going to die or have a supposed panic attack, I had to use some of my techniques that I learned last year (after my near death-like situation, a supposed panic attack according to the doctor, but I never had a panic attack like that before) to prevent the feelings from getting worse & so that I could go back to sleep; and eventually I was able to go back to sleep.

*Somehow the part that I typed below got deleted when I accidentally pressed a certain combination of keys on my keyboard, so I lost some of what I typed earlier, which is very annoying; and the Un-Do function in Firefox never works for me, maybe because I use Private Mode all the time?*

Dream 2

The next dream took place in D during the night at a fictional apartment in the field next to Burger King, some of the cast of the TV show Being Human (Syfy) were there, and I think that they were going their separate ways; and maybe somehow Nora Sergeant (played by the actress Kristen Hager) and I met after that, and maybe we went out for dinner or something, but I can not remember the details of what happened exactly.

I only remember that later in the dream Nora and I had dated for a while & now we were in a serious relationship and/or were married or about to get married soon & maybe Nora was pregnant but I am not sure, and I was at my parent’s house in the living room on the computer or something during the night; and Nora walked into the house without knocking or anything, like she lived there and/or like she was very comfortable/close with my family, and this seemed normal to me as well but she did surprise me a bit.

I stopped what I was doing and I got up to greet her, she was in a good mood but she seemed to be tired like either she had worked late at the hospital and/or like she was pregnant, and we started talking; but then my mom walked into the living room to greet Nora, and they both sat on the couch to talk, like they were very close, like a daughter-in-law & a mother-in-law talking (I can not recall my mom ever being this relaxed with/around someone other than my dad).

After their conversation Nora showed me a grocery store sales paper, she told me that she wanted me to go grocery shopping (I asked her if she wanted me to go to Walmart but she said no, that she wanted me to go to BB, which is where I wanted to go), and she went over the list of stuff that she wanted me to get; and I remember being concerned about the list having more expensive brands instead of generic brands, having maybe a few unnecessary things, and I worried about the cost of the long list but I listened anyway.

After listening to Nora I started looking over the grocery list and I started thinking about any questions that I had, and I started thinking about other things that I wanted to talk about in reference to the list & other things; and Nora laid back on the couch to relax like she was pregnant and/or super comfortable, and my mom was still on the couch & they both looked tired.

I remember thinking about how I still had no job & that I was still living at my parent’s house, and I felt that there was no way that I was going to be able to support a wife/girlfriend & kid for long like that or at all & I felt that it was wrong for me to have started a relationship with Nora in my current situation & I felt that I needed to seriously find a job soon & then get my own place to live in again (with Nora as well); and I felt an extra boost of inspiration, responsibility, and urgency to improve my situation for Nora, a possible future kid, and myself.

All of these thoughts & more were running through my mind that I wanted to talk to Nora about and I wanted to talk about the grocery store list with Nora & possibly ask Nora to come to the grocery store with me so that we could compare each other’s shopping habits & try to find a compromise if she was feeling good enough to go to the grocery store with me; I was so focused on this, that I did not notice that Nora & my mom were both now asleep on the couch, and it only took them a few minutes to go to sleep. 😀

I decided to not disturb them, and so I left in my automobile to go grocery shopping; and I was still trying to decide what I was going to do to save some money in reference to Nora’s grocery list or if I should just buy everything that she wanted, and I wondered how long it would be until I ran out of money at this rate since I had no job & since Nora’s grocery list was so long.

Something happened in the dream during a part in the dream (I am not sure when) where someone talked to me or warned me about something, near V Park, and while they were talking I saw flashes of scenes with Aidan Waite in them; Aidan was in a dimly lit room or bathroom, and someone was using prescience or remote viewing to try to find his location & so he was using his powers to try & block them from being able to see him.

Blocking that person’s/being’s prescience or remote viewing required so much concentration that Aidan could not move or do anything else but focus his powers, and a man entered the room where Aidan was while he was standing concentrating his powers; and I remember Aidan having no shirt on, and the man started shaving Aidan’s body hair on the upper part of his body & face with an old style straight razor like he was enjoying it in a homosexual-like way, it was freaky & disturbing.

Aidan could not stop him or say anything, since he needed all of his concentration on his powers to block the person/being from using prescience or remote viewing to see him, but the man accidentally(?) cut Aidan a few times which briefly broke Aidan’s concentration each time but Aidan quickly re-focused each time.

Aidan was in a very awkward situation and he was straining/trying very hard to stay focused, he was clearly sweating & in a bit of pain & was annoyed by the man in the room, but the flashes of scenes of this ended; and I finished my conversation with whoever was warning me about something, and they left.

I remember driving on my way to the grocery store but I stopped in the parking lot of my bank, this was during the night, to look at the grocery list & to think about what to do & maybe also to see who was at the apartment building from the beginning of the dream; but then an automobile wrecked into the back of another automobile.

A few minutes later another automobile came speeding up the road and did a sharp turn that caused it to flip & wreck.

A minute or so after that another automobile came speeding up the road and they went out of control, and wrecked as well; it was crazy, like people were driving drunk or something, and so I felt afraid to drive on the road & I wondered what was going on.

I called Nora to see if she was okay and I wanted to return home to talk to her; but I woke up.

As of 5-5-2012 I still have some feelings/connection to this dream/the dream character of Nora, which is longer than usual, usually I might dream of someone or something & I might have feelings/a connection to the dream/a character in the dream/an item in the dream for a few hours or a day or two where I want talk to that person (if the dream was about a real person) or I want to get/use an item from the dream (if the dream was about a real item) et cetera; and so I find this/that to be interesting.

The end,

-John Jr 🙂