I had a variety of dreams that I remembered but that I let myself forget them without recording them which I have been doing increasingly recently after I stopped blogging my dreams the last week & few days, but I did record barely part of two dreams though.
Dream 1
The end of this dream took place at The BP Library where I was working, I know that I saw several of my coworkers but I can not remember which ones, I do remember seeing a woman with light-color skin with medium-length red hair wearing a green maybe long sleeve shirt (maybe sweater) who I assumed to be my female coworker JB walking some patrons to The Children’s Section to find a book I assumed.
At the end of this dream I was on an upper floor of a building with some other people including a man with light-color skin and a woman, and at some point the man and I were brushing our teeth.
The man predicted that the woman would brush her teeth at 10, and then his prediction ended up being true because the woman started brushing her teeth at 10.
I had a lot of pretty clear and detailed interesting dreams and I even had some lucid dreams including a wake induced lucid dream (WILD) but as usual I did not record some of my dreams and some were not recorded until later so dreams and details of dreams were lost and confused, the first three dreams below are possibly part of one dream but I am not sure, and so I will type them separately; and my lucid dreams were all connected because I woke up and went back into the lucid dream several times, and so I will type them as one dream.
Dream 1
This dream took place during the day and I was at my parent’s house, and I noticed movement inside the abandoned house but I could not see who or what it was so I walked outside.
I never could see who or what it was, but sometimes things were moved around like someone was possibly moving out stuff or something.
Across the field at The Action Packed House there were fictional windows at the back of the house, and I saw two unknown women with light-color skin inside the house like they were cleaning it up and clearing it out like maybe the people living there had either been arrested finally and / or kicked out and / or were moving.
My mom and maybe my brother GC walked outside and I told them what I saw, but that is all that I can remember of this dream as we talked and tried to figure out who or what was inside the abandoned house.
I can not remember most of this dream now but it involved a smart boy who was very similar to the Charlie from The Father Thing episode, but he probably had autism.
The dream started when he was a very young boy, he had a mother and older sister who both had light-color skin, but I am not sure if his father was dead or gone or where he was.
There was something going on that I can not remember and the mother and sister tried to help the boy with whatever was going, and the dream jumped in time to the future when the boy was a bit older but he was still a boy.
The mother and sister went to talk to the boy, but he was different now and whatever they had done to help him in the past seemed to have turned him into something else.
The boy was still smart but he was very cold (distant and unemotional) and seemed to lack some human emotions, he told his mother and sister that he did not need them anymore and something else, and it seemed that he was going to go his own way and would probably become financially and intellectually successful but he was probably going to not have social relationships and probably would not even need them because it seemed that he just lacked certain emotions and that maybe he did not need much or any social interactions and relationships et cetera.
In a way he seemed to be a bit of a monster now, the mother’s and daughter’s help had help create something else, but that is all that I can remember of this dream other than the boy saying this to them while standing there with no emotions as his mother and sister probably were sad and maybe cried and he did not care at all.
Dream 3
I am not sure if this was a dream within a dream or not and there are other details that are unclear to me, and I just remember that it was day and a woman who was or who looked like Madison Clark from the television show Fear The Walking Dead was driving an old maybe brown SUV (sport utility vehicle) fast down a dirt road with many sharp turns through a post-apocalyptic-looking wasteland of mostly orange dirt and rocks and mountains and hills with maybe patches of plants here and there.
The woman seemed to have possibly just awakened or something, like she was from the past and had awakened in the future or something where things were different now and she was confused, and so she was in a panic driving fast and hitting sharp turns along the dirt road through the wasteland.
At some point she reached a small shack or house along the road so she stopped at it, there she met two women (mother and daughter) with light-color skin, and one claimed to be a queen and the other claimed to be a princess.
They told Madison that they had survived, but now they were living out here instead of the palace after an event that happened in the past but I am not sure how long ago this happened so I am not sure now long Madison was sleep or frozen or gone or whatever caused her to miss all of this and now know what was going on.
They told Madison that she had started the event, that she had started a fire, out here and that fire spread and burnt up a huge area which created the wasteland I assume.
Madison remembered starting a fire but had no idea that it accidentally had spread and did all of that, she had no memory of anything after that, but then I woke up into another dream or the dream jumped.
I was now sitting on a couch in a room in front of a television and BennettTheSage was there, what I had just saw was a movie that BennettTheSage and some of his classmates had made back when he was in public school still, and he started telling me about it as I asked questions because I was impressed with what I had seen so far.
He started playing the movie again explaining some of the cinematography et cetera, he showed the driving scene, and I remember it being filmed in first person at times so it felt like you were there for the sharp turns and the hard bumps.
We either continued watching the movie or I returned to the dream within a dream or the dream jumped, and in this version Madison was driving along the dirt road when she saw her daughter who had light-color skin with long medium-to-dark color hair so she stopped and got out to talk to her.
Marching up the road was the self-proclaimed queen and princess and a group of armed (probably just melee weapons) raider-looking people, and they all looked like characters from a Mad Max movie or from a Fallout video game except for the queen and princess who were wearing maybe white dresses but they had some dirt on them and some other things to make themselves look rougher and tougher.
The daughter told Madison that the queen and princess were not really the queen and princess, and that they just claimed to be and to not trust them and that they should leave before they get closer.
Madison wanted to talk to them but the daughter wanted to leave, they got closer to where it would be too late to run, but I woke up as they either passed by or were close to them.
Dream 4
This dream took place during late in the afternoon or early evening and I seemed to be in another city staying at a hotel with some other people including maybe some people from Rooster Teeth and maybe my brother GC, and maybe we had been out having fun et cetera when some of us returned to the hotel briefly.
Once back at the hotel most of them wanted to go out somewhere else, I possibly would have went but I had a doctor’s appointment to attend so I had to turn down the offer, and I remember them going to and near the bathroom to get ready to leave again while I looked at my stuff next to my bed trying to decide what to bring with me for my walk to the doctor’s office.
I assumed that everyone left, I decided to only bring two things with me instead of just taking my backpack like I wanted to, and I left for my walk to the doctor’s appointment.
Oddly I remember walking past an area that was basically a slightly fictional version of T Street in the city of D, in a field near a church was a small shopping center with a bench further to the right of it in the field, and I stopped there because I needed to decide if I should take the two items back to the hotel room and grab my backpack.
I decided to leaven the two items under the bench even though I did not want to and hope that they would still be there later, but then I turned around to get them and go back to the hotel room to leave them there and take my backpack instead.
Once back at the hotel room I realized that not everyone was gone to my surprise and Barbara Dunkelman or a woman who reminded me of her was still there, and she was taking a shower.
I needed to brush my teeth so I waited for her to finish, she finished and opened the door, and she was naked and standing in front of the mirror maybe drying off et cetera so I waited on my bed looking away trying to be a gentleman.
At some point she walked to the bed to my left, I thought that she would be dressed or would at least have a towel on now, but she was still naked to my surprise and her appearance had changed a bit to where she was a bit darker like Barbara with a bit of a tan but she was not Barbara anymore but looked somewhat like her and her butt was bigger and her breasts were smaller but I did not realize that her appearance had changed to a different person.
I looked away again as soon as I realized that she was naked, I was still trying to be a gentleman, and then she walked to the bathroom still naked again once again blocking me from being able to brush my teeth so I waited and maybe talked to the woman across the room as she was still inside the bathroom.
I am not sure if this happened next or during one of the times that I woke up from this dream and went back to sleep and returned to it, either way I will put it here, but I remember maybe my mom and my brother GC and an unknown man who may have been someone’s manager and possibly one or two other people entering the room briefly at least.
I briefly talked with them, they possibly mentioned some new movie role or something that someone in the group from earlier was getting, and then I told them about the woman in the shower and how she had some offers for some kind of entertainment work or something too; but that is all that I can remember of this part of the dream or one of them, and I am not sure where they went but what I remember next is being alone in the room again other than the woman still being in the bathroom.
I remember letting the woman know from across the room that I needed to brush my teeth and to let me know when she was finished because I had a doctor’s appointment, and then she told me that I could come into the bathroom and brush my teeth even though she was still in there; I asked her if she was sure about that, I was not comfortable with the idea and I hoped that she was dressed or had a towel on now, and eventually she convinced me to walk into the bathroom with her to brush my teeth.
Unfortunately she was still naked and standing in front of the mirror, I once again asked her if she was sure about this, and she once again assured me that it as okay; she seemed to be the laid back and relaxed type, and now her appearance had changed again to where she looked a bit different and her skin was now a light-medium color and maybe her butt was a bit bigger but I probably did not notice that she looked like a different person but I may have slightly noticed possibly changes each time that she changed but just assumed that maybe I was imagining things.
Once again I tried to be a gentleman and look away as I brushed my teeth while looking in the mirror, but in the corner of my eye or in the corner of the mirror she was there because she was standing to the right of me in front of the mirror too.
I was not comfortable, I was trying to be a gentleman, but I could still feel attraction and awkwardness and some other feeling or feelings that I can not describe between us as there was an awkward silence as I brushed my teeth.
At some point the pull of the feelings were too strong to ignore and we turned to look at each other to acknowledge that we both felt something, like do you feel that, and we both felt it and then maybe she leaned in to kiss me and we started kissing and making some physical contact with a bit of foreplay starting until I stopped and walked out of the bathroom trying to be a gentleman again as I realized that this was clearly going to go further.
I told her that we did not even know each other, we have not gotten tested for sexually transmitted diseases, we did not have any protection, et cetera so we should stop there and that people should not have sex under these conditions.
She laughed and countered each point that I kept bringing up with her own reasons why it was okay for us to have sex as she tried to convince me, and her thoughts were: that it was okay because we both adults and we wanted to or at least our bodies clearly wanted to, that she had chosen me, that I probably did not have any sexually transmitted diseases because I never had sex before, that pregnancy from this one time was not likely, that we did not need to know each other, and so it was okay.
I of course countered each of her points, she countered mine again, and then she ended by saying: What if this is a dream? It would not matter then right?.
I responded that she was correct and that it would not matter if this was a dream, and then I started to question if this was dream or not after she said this.
My mind was too cloudy to remember how to test if I was dreaming or not, I tried but I could not think clearly, but I felt that maybe this was a dream and I started to feel the dream destabilize once I felt this and I thought this so that was most of the proof that I needed so I told her that I think that this is a dream so it would probably be okay then so she wins.
The foreplay started again on the bed this time but the dream was collapsing because it was too unstable, I stopped to rub my hands together to stabilize the dream, this helped some and we started back but I felt that the dream was still too unstable so I stopped to spin around and then rub my hands which helped.
We started back but I did not take enough time to stabilize the dream, and so the dream started collapsing again after we started until I started waking up but I kept my eyes closed and I kept the blinking in and out image of the lucid dream in my mind with the intention to return to it and I was able to quickly fall back asleep and continue the dream almost immediately because it was blinking in and out as I kept it in my mind as my brain was trying to transition to being awake but I did not let it completely wake up I guess.
After almost immediately returning to the lucid dream it was super unstable so as the foreplay started back the dream was collapsing and blinking in and out, and I was moving back and forth between waking and dreaming trying to stay in the lucid dream; but I quickly lost the battle and I woke up.
I did not give up and I kept my eyes closed and I kept the image of the lucid dream in my mind along with my intention to return to it, and I managed to have a waked induced (initiated) lucid dream (WILD).
I returned to the hotel room and the lucid dream was still unstable but it was more stable than the last time, the woman was not there this time, and so I tried to summon her but the dream was too unstable and it was just stable enough for me to walk around the room looking for her and calling out to her and trying to summon her but then this WILD collapsed too and I finally gave up.
I remembered more details of my dreams from last night that were pretty detailed, but I did not record most of them unfortunately.
Dream 1
There was more to this dream but my text note of this dream on my mobile phone was only about 5 words long, and so most of the dream is lost now.
The end of this dream took place during the day outside and inside at an area near a street in a neighborhood, there was a yard that slightly reminded me of the yard of The E House but it was not, and eventually I discovered a small prison next to it.
To my surprise a Charles Manson-like prisoner was being insecurely held in the prison with no guards it seemed, and he was possibly able to move between inside and outside the building so he possibly approached me as I stood in the yard.
The Charles Manson-like man spoke to me but I can not remember what he told me or what else happened other than me wondering where the guards were and he seemed a bit crazy and dangerous, my memory was pretty detailed about what happened, but I went back to sleep without properly recording it.
Dream 2
This dream is also unclear now unfortunately even though it was detailed and I had remembered more of it earlier.
This dream took place during the day, I am not sure if I got a telephone call from my mom telling me that someone was at The E House who wanted to talk to me or what happened, I just know that I went to a fictional version of The E House that has possibly been in a past dream.
This fictional version of The E House looks nothing like the real house, it is much larger and nicer, and it even has maybe an attic and maybe a basement and / or something like that; and this house has its own history and false memories that I knew and remembered so I was familiar and comfortable with it.
I remember walking through the main hallway that passes several rooms, one of the small rooms had some of my former classmates (like maybe my former male classmate DS) and one or more of my family members (like maybe my male cousin ME) hanging out in it, and next to their room was a large lobby / living room-like area that I entered.
In this room I saw a person sitting on a couch at the back of the room in the middle, and as I got closer I realized that it was my former female classmate CW who I used to like back in high school and eventually I even let her know but I was politely turned down (rejected).
I was surprised and happy to see her because I have not seen her since we graduated from high school, and she looked like she was the age that she would be now and her hair was a bit curly and she looked better than I had expected.
CW seemed to be waiting on me or just happened to be there, and she greeted me telling me that she wanted to tell me something.
She told me that she was wrong and she asked me if I would forgive her, and so I asked her what she was talking about and she explained that she had been wrong for rejecting me all those years ago.
She told me that over the years since then she has been in various relationships and marriages that have all failed, and here I was all these years later still single and that maybe this was possibly a sign that she should have gave me a chance all those years ago.
I told her that she had nothing to apologize for, that it was okay, and that I was sorry that her relationships had not worked out over the years.
She asked me if I would give her another chance and I said yes, she started to cry, and she gave me a hug.
I comforted her and we talked briefly, and I told her that I wanted to give her a tour of the house and tell her about some of its history and some of my memories of it.
She wanted us to do something else together, but she needed to leave to do something else first so she left.
I felt that I needed to brush my teeth because I did not want my breath to be stinky so I left to walk home to do that and then return quickly, and while I was walking my mom called me on my mobile phone telling me that maybe my uncle CE had a computer in the laundry building at The E House that he wanted me to fix.
No details were given about the computer so I told my mom that I would stop and maybe get it along the way home, and when I reached the laundry building it was locked and I was not sure if I had the key or not so I decided to worry about it later and I probably went home and brushed my teeth and I quickly returned to meet up with CW.
I was happy and excited and maybe slightly nervous because I was not sure what we were going to do, and I got back right before CW did.
CW entered the room looking sad, she asked me to have a seat with her on the couch, and she explained that whatever she had planned was cancelled and that she was sorry for getting my hopes up and for ending up rejecting me again.
She then told me that she was either recently divorced or was still getting divorced and that she had a boyfriend, and she apologized for not telling me this before.
I thanked her for telling the truth, and I tried to make her feel better by acting like everything was okay even though I probably felt a bit sad and I knew that the sadness would probably hit me later when no one else was around.
I did not want her to feel bad, I am not sure if she left first or if I did, I just know that I was happy that I at least got to see and talk to her again; but I was also starting to feel sad and depressive, and so it was starting to hit me already.
The situation was a bit messed up, having your hopes raised again after all these years after being apologized to and then crushed again, but that is the kind of luck I seem to have sometimes I thought to myself so I am somewhat used to it but it still hurts.
Last night I barely remembered any of my last dream, and I have not remembered much of any of my dreams the past few days.
This dream took place in a city, and I was traveling with my family; at least at first.
We were riding in our van and reached a building that was like a recreational center mixed with a tourist center that had a basketball court, small restaurant, arcade room, small movie theater, and more.
It appeared that my family was here to vacation and either I was too or I already lived in this city or I was going to soon move there, I am not sure.
My memory of the dream is terrible, I think my parent’s left on a tour around the city or their van got stolen, whatever happened my parent’s left me with my brothers for a while.
My brother’s split up to explore different areas of the building and at some point they either joined my parent’s again, or some of them joined me, I am not sure.
I just remember being on my own during the end of the dream while I explored part of the building looking for something or a way out, I came across several people, one was a woman with short orange hair that talked with me a few times.
At some point I came across my cousin and he told me that he had a job in the city doing something that involved stocking a warehouse or something, I briefly stopped to talk to him about jobs and maybe my plans, and then I remember having my automobile on the outside of the building; but I am not sure if I gave my cousin a ride to work and/or if I took some of my brothers to my parent’s.
Whatever happened at some point I was back at the building, if I even had left at all, and at some point I think I came across the woman with short orange hair again and a few other people.
The part of the building that I was at was darker and was like a hostel or something with a small bathroom that was the same as at my parent’s house, and every one at the hostel shared that one bathroom.
I had to go use the bathroom and as I walked to the bathroom, I noticed that the door was cracked and the woman with the short orange hair was in a nightgown or something and was either brushing her teeth or hair or something; she told me that I could come in if I wanted to and I told her that I could wait to use the bathroom when she finished, but she insisted that I could go ahead and use it.
I hesitated for a moment, especially since I would not normally use the bathroom with someone I do not know well around, but for some reason I felt just comfortable enough to go on inside the bathroom; but I turned my back toward her for some privacy.
I was somewhat surprised that I had done that and that I felt somewhat comfortable around the woman, I was curious about her and wanted to know more about her, so I stopped to talk with her instead of just leaving the bathroom.
She appeared to be at least 5 years older than me, she seemed to have a relaxed personality, but she was mysterious to me; I knew I had seen her several times in the dream and even had talked with her briefly a few times but I did not know her name or really anything about her.
I told her how I was surprised by my own actions and that I was curious about who she was, and that I normally would not stop to have a long conversation with a person I did not know like this.
She seemed to have a slight smile as I was talking but I could not tell what she was thinking or feeling, she still seemed mysterious to me, but I did not feel threatened at all; but I was very curious about her and felt that something was different about her, maybe she even seemed somewhat out-of-place compared to the other dream characters.
I also had this strange feeling toward her or about her, well it was a very weak dream-like (it is hard to describe) feeling, and I was not sure what it was.
At first I thought it was just a feeling of attraction from me to her or her to me or both, but I was not sure, and from the way she acted and looked; I still could not decide/figure it out since she was somehow unreadable to me and mysterious.
I wondered if she was setting me up for a trap at first and maybe she was one of those dream characters that was there to interrupt my dream by attacking me, like a few of my other dreams recently, but I did not feel threatened so I doubted that.
I was somewhat cautious though and curious at the same time, and I was trying to figure out what was that weak unknown feeling I felt.
But before our conversation really got started, I woke up.
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