I had a variety of clear dreams and some wake induced lucid dreams (WILDs), but unfortunately I did not record them each time that I woke up so now I can only remember barely part of several of my dreams.
Dream 1
At some point during the early morning after getting in bed, I am not sure if I woke up or if I caught myself as I was about to fall asleep, either way I had my eyes closed but I was able to see a place in my mind very clearly like a dream but I was still awake so I decided to try to have a wake induced lucid dream by holding this visualization of this place in my mind.
I tried to imagine a scenario for the place that I was seeing in my mind, the place that I saw was possibly a book store-like place where I was in a position on top of some shelves or something among maybe books and other things, but I can not remember; and I set the goal of trying to communicate with my subconscious by trying to get it to appear in human form to talk to me in this place.
I held the image of this place keeping my eyes closed, somehow I kept the image stable as I fell asleep while still being conscious, and eventually I felt that I was sleep enough to start trying to control the wake induced lucid dream (WILD).
The dream world was not completely stable, I tried to move and do a few things to test this, and it was not stable so I had to focus a moment until it was barely stable enough to barely move and barely interact with the dream world.
After a few brief tests I started to yell out to my subconscious telling it to show itself to me in human form to talk to me, and I tried to summon my subconscious.
A small human shape started to appear to the left side of me that I could barely see through the corner of my left eye, the dream was too unstable for me to move to see it, and so I barely could see it forming slightly in the corner of my left eye.
The dream was so unstable that I woke up from it briefly several times keeping my eyes closed while still keeping the dream world in my mind which was amazing because I could still see everything like the dream was there, like it was paused, and then I was able to go back to sleep each time and continue the dream again.
Each time a new humanoid shape would start trying to appear and sometimes it would talk to me, I asked it if it was my subconscious or if it was just a random dream character, but I can not remember what its response was.
The humanoid shapes were usually small and maybe almost fetus-shaped, most of the time I did not have a good view of them because they would appear in the corner of my field of vision, and I could not usually turn to see them because that is how unstable the dreams were.
Only a few shapes were independent or separated, most formed from objects on the shelves, and so I would see part of a humanoid shape forming in an object and slightly sticking out while still being connected to whatever object it tried to form from which would normally be pretty freaky but I usually could not and would not look at them because of how unstable the dream world was and I did not want to risk messing things up and I wanted my subconscious to pick its own form without me consciously giving it a form / shape.
Sometimes my assumed subconscious would talk to me in a maybe distorted weird somewhat creepy unknown male voice, and most of what it said was cryptic and did not make much sense.
A few things that it said were clear and somewhat understandable but were still confusing, I clearly remembered something it said to me, but since I did not record these lucid dreams after they happened I can not remember what it told me now.
Waking up and going back into the lucid dreams kept interrupting my assumed subconscious from completely forming into a humanoid shape and being able to say more than a few things each time, the dream world was too unstable to keep going for long, and so I had to keep going back into the dream.
Only maybe 1 – 3 things that it said could possibly be slightly translated, the dream world was so unstable that what it told me was mostly nonsensical, I wish that I could remember the details that I had remembered when this was over but I failed to record the details before going back to sleep and having more dreams.
One time my assumed subconscious formed from some blue stuff that was on a shelf so I could only see part of a blue fetus-like shape poking partly from the blue object and it could move its mouth but there was no opening for the mouth shape because it was still connected to the blue material, but somehow it still spoke out-loud even though the mouth had no opening which was a bit freaky.
It reminded me of the talking fetus from the playable teaser demo for the video game P.T. (Silent Hills).
During one of my assumed subconscious’s humanoid forms I was possibly in its face asking it questions trying to get it to make sense because I was annoyed because it was saying things that did not make sense to me mostly, but that is all that I can remember of these WILDs.
Dream 2
I am not sure if this is a separate dream or part of the next dream, and so I will type it separately.
This dream took place during the night, the end of the dream involved me sitting on a bus talking with my brother GC and our dad, and the bus was possibly slightly raised from the ground and it was connected to our house oddly.
It seemed to be a place that we could relax and see the outside and even walk through to get outside, it possibly also served as a bridge that possible connected to another building, and so maybe we could use it to reach the other building without going outside but I can not remember.
As we were talking we got interrupted by a knock from the outside of the bus from the left side, we looked outside the windows into the darkness outside, and we saw my possibly now homeless male cousin DE standing outside the bus wearing a knit hat and a T-shirt and sweat pants looking mentally unstable.
We had not seen him in over a week after he left during one of his very mentally unstable episodes that got so bad that police were called multiple times on him by different people in the city and he got kicked out of the place where he was living and he even got into it with my family even though we were the only people left trying to help him after he pushed everyone else away, and now he was back suddenly late at night after being gone for over a week.
This annoyed us and we did not want to see him or let him in after all that has happened over the years and recently but our dad opened the door to the bus and let him in to our annoyance and surprise, DE did not say anything, and he walked into our house walking in different rooms talking to himself and arguing with I assume the hallucinations that he sees and hears.
Me and my brother GC were annoyed and wanted him gone, how would we sleep with DE inside the house still very unstable, but that is all that I can remember of this dream or this part of the dream.
Dream 3
This dream took place during the evening and / or night across one or more days, the end of the dream involved me meeting a fictional princess in the British Royal Family and maybe another princess who both had light-color skin.
They were possibly the granddaughters of the queen (I am not sure if this was the real queen or a fictional one because I never got to see her in the dream), but I am not sure.
We talked et cetera and one of the princesses dared and convinced and wanted me to sneak around rarely used and possibly secret parts of a royal palace (mansion) that they lived at and that the queen sometimes stayed at, I did not think that this was a good idea, but eventually I did it after she told me that there would not be much security there because the queen was not there right now.
She told me where to go to avoid the security patrols, and then I sneaked into the royal palace and I walked around rarely used and secret areas.
This was actually fun and interesting, I went through attics and maybe basements and various floors, and this place reminded me of places that are sometimes in my dreams where fictional versions of my grandparents house and / or other buildings have rarely used and secret areas that seem somewhat comfortable to me like visiting areas where old memories are stored or something.
Surprisingly no security seemed to be patrolling these areas, I am not sure how many times I sneaked into the royal palace during the dream, but only I did so each time that the princess asked / dared / wanted me to.
I think that I only did this during the evening or night each time, the princess who I talked to the most seemed to enjoy this, and we seemed to be forming a relationship of some kind.
At some point during an evening or night an old male butler / bodyguard from the royal palace who was or looked like Michael Caine approached me outside (not at the royal palace), he said that they (the security) knew about me sneaking into the royal palace (maybe hidden cameras), and he said that he wanted me to stop doing that and that I was not allowed to visit the royal palace anymore but I can not remember if this was coming from just the security or if the queen had also given the order.
I explained that the princess had told and wanted me to, but that was not good enough and it was only enough to stop me from being arrested now but they would probably arrest me if I returned to the royal palace.
Later in the dream I told the princess about this and she was angry about it, and we tried to figure out what to do about it.
If the queen gave the order then there was nothing that she could do almost, and so she tossed around different ideas like adopting me and / or marrying me so that I would be part of the royal family and would be able to access the royal palace.
If the queen did not approve of us getting married she could kick the princess out of the family and refuse to recognize me as a member of the royal family, and so everything was dependent on what the queen would decide.
The princess would have to decide if she was willing to risk getting kicked out of the royal family, she seemed stubborn and ready to do that, but I tried to calm her down and get her to not risk that.
But I woke up as we talked about this.
The end,
-John Jr
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